11/25/19

-kyle

11/18/19

It is Monday, November 18, 2019, at 1:30pm. My son and I are watching Canton Charge highlights on YouTube. Last night the Los Angeles Lakers beat the Atlanta Hawks 122-101.

I just left the gym. I ran on the treadmill, lifted weights, and played three games of competitive one on one basketball with my very fit friend. I won the first two games. I let him win the third.
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I am still being intentionally ignored for living through, figuring out, and publishing the cure to cancer. Sometimes I don't know how to feel about that. Sometimes the intentional malice and ignorance of people who I once thought wanted to help myself and others hurts me. Sometimes knowing that people know what I know, know that it will help others, but won't stand up with me and won't speak up with me, hurts me too.

I know that there is nothing to worry about. I know that the world is eventually going to change. I know that more people are eventually going to stand up with me and speak up with me. I know that everything is eventually going to be ok for everyone. I know it. At this point I just need to remain patient, and keep sharing what I know.
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It is now Monday, November 18, 2019, at 4:03pm. My son just left. He makes me happy. I am about to go for a walk. I have come a long way since the first post of this blog. I will check back in soon.

Peace

-Kyle

It is Wednesday, October 16, 2019, at 11:27 pm. My son is having a baby in a few months. Basketball season is almost here. My birthday is coming up soon. I have a lot to look forward to.

Below is Chapter 7 of the upcoming audiobook that I co-authored entitled... "HIStory: The Life and Times of Bernie Durant." In this chapter, Mr. Durant explains in detail how he as a Quality Control Engineer working at Western Electric in the early 1960's overcame many trials and tribulations to become the first African American home owner in the history of the city of Allentown, PA. Mr. Durant was my friend, my mentor, and almost like my father. We were just about finished writing his autobiography before he passed away in 2014. Rather than me completing just his physical book, having an audiobook and hearing him tell his story seemed appropriate in this new digital age.

Full audiobook coming soon.

Enjoy 🖤

Chapter 7: House

It is Thursday, October 3rd, 2019.

Let me repeat that.

It is Thursday, October 3rd, 2019.

We are less than three months away from the year 2020.

That is actually kind of scary.

On May 31, 2018, I published the book "The DEATH OF a CANCER patient."

That book is the cure to all cancer.

That is actually kind of scary.

That was seventeen months ago.

To myself, there was never an issue of if the book was going to age well. Once I finished the book, I knew what I had. I knew that my book really was the cure to cancer. Once I realized that the book could literally be read and applied backwards to other people without me having to do anything but change certain sequences of the wording, I really knew what I had. That is what "the death of a cancer patient ii" is. When I finished writing part ii, I really knew that I had the cure to cancer.

My issue was always going to be acceptance. Generations of propaganda stigmatized marijuana. I knew that after figuring out the cure to all cancer included the once looked down upon but newly legal medical marijuana, getting people to accept that truth was going to be the real issue. For many years, the cure to all cancer sounded like something that was impossible. Convincing people that I figured out the impossible... in what would seem like an impossible way... seemed really impossible.

Seventeen months after publishing The DEATH OF a CANCER patient, the world is changing. The world is becoming more accepting of plants being medicine. It is slowly becoming very normal.

The world is also getting smarter. People are becoming more demanding. People are tired of giving to a system without receiving equal value. People are tired of paying for things that are more than they are worth. People are tired of being paid less than what they are worth.

People want the cure to cancer. People have invested enough of their hard earned money in an attempt to find a cure. People deserve a cure. As impossible as it once sounded, my books are the cure. I can no longer be afraid to say it. This blog chronicled my cancer journey since day 1. My books had to be the cure, and they really are.

Again, it is Thursday, October 3rd, 2019.

Again, that is actually kind of scary.

I have no idea what it going to happen next. My entire infrastructure is set up. My blog is thorough, my books are complete, and my body and mind are as healthy as can be. My books are in the hands of very well respected doctors, psychologists, and businesses around the world. Someone very important and very influential is eventually going to validate me, and the cure to cancer is eventually going to be accepted. My only question is when, and how. Will I get a phone call in 5 minutes that will change my life? Will I verbally explain the cure to cancer in front of doctors, psychologists, businesses, a really big crowd, cancer patients, and the media?

I am not sure what is going to happen. All I know that is something is going to eventually happen. I understand that all I have to do at this point is stay patient, poised, and purposeful.

It is now Thursday, October 3, 2019, at 10:47am. I am sitting in the lounge of a hostel in downtown New Orleans. They play really soulful music here for 24 hours. I am eating a ham, egg, and cheese 'crousandwich that I made from the open breakfast bar. I am drinking an orange juice and a coffee. My roommates are really nice. The room is really clean. I am about to go to a thrift shop down the street, get a smoothie, and go for a casual stroll in a quiet neighborhood. I am going to read my poetry at an open mic night tonight. Maybe my phone will finally ring, the phone call or email I have been waiting for will happen, and my life will finally change. Maybe it won't. All I know is that whatever happens next, I will be fully prepared for it.

Peace.

kyle j. kostic

It is September 15 , 2019 at 3:57 pm. The Patriots are beating the Dolphins 37-0. I didn't even know it was football season , let alone week 2. I have been really focused on work. 

I just got back from spending 10 days in Los Angeles. This trip gave me a breakthrough. The one I needed. I really needed to understand that nobody cares. Forget about me. Forget about you. Forget about cancer. People like you and me and with cancer that are reading this have places to sleep. Homeless people do not have places to sleep. I have social security, a gym membership, and my health. I have been homeless. While I am in Pennsylvania, I have a place to sleep. I am a California resident though , due to my medical needs. When I am in California, I am really homeless. I was really homeless for these last 10 days. I really slept outside of UCLA Health Center on Lincoln BLVD in Marina Del Rey. I really go to St Joseph's Homeless Center every day to get my mail. I really go to Bread and Roses to eat every day. I have checked in to those places over 300+ times in the last 3 years. I really walk until I get blisters on my feet. After I sit and pop the blisters, I get up and keep walking. I break my root chakra on purpose, and then let it heal. I walked an unthinkable amount of miles in the last 10 days. I needed to be around the worst of the worst, and away from people who need attention. While I was in LA, I intentionally went to the hood and sat in piss and garbage with Papi. Yes I am getting ignored for publishing 5 books, knowing the cure to cancer, blah blah blah... but this grown man is constantly being ignored for literally living in piss and garbage. Like, Mr. Hildago has a name, story, and a REAL need for attention. I don't really care about your Ferrari , your resume , what you are wearing, what you look like, or what you are financially worth. I am not giving it any of my attention. Mr. Hildago needs to be loved. He needs my attention. He and other homeless people need the attention of us all. Just by me giving him attention , he feels love. He doesn't even speak English , and I barely speak Spanish. He just sits and swats flies, and I just sit and smoke weed. My point is, my life is ok. Seeing how homeless people still live and remembering really being homeless for some time in LA gave me the breakthrough of perspective that I needed. I am no longer going to complain about not being heard about knowing the cure to cancer, even though cancer patients still need help. I am just going to continue living my life. The reception I received from drops and drips is making me smile right now like I haven't smiled in a while. People love the books. I have been writing for my entire life, and only have 5 books. I only release books that I feel are necessary. drops and drips are definitely necessary. This recent trip to LA solidified my position as an author. People really, really, really, love drops and drips. Then I pull the other 3 of my books out my bag, and things really get interesting. The staff at Bread and Roses are LMU graduate school volunteers, and they all feel sorry for me because they understand my conceptualization of the cure to cancer, see my books, see and hear me speak, understand systematic oppression, and understand that I am being ostracized by society because what I know shuts big pharma down. They are almost embarrassed to give me my food and pour my drink, because they know that I shouldn't be there. I have to be there though. I have to be an author that is seen being ignored by the system by young LMU students, social service workers, and people of society. When I went to get my EBT card, the service worker felt my pain. That was a down moment for me, even though I am better now. Being ignored for knowing the cure to cancer hurts. Having to get EBT, be homeless, and do all of this stuff is not fun. I am very tired. Even though I only got $14.00 of EBT a month, I was grateful for that. I used it all. With all of that being said, I am going to continue listening to what Jeremy tells me. Slow down. Keep living slow. I am going to do just that. I am going to keep things in perspective , and be grateful for my health. I am going to just hang out with my family for a while. I have done my due diligence as a cancer advocate. I am passed that. The people in power all know the cure. They are going to release it on their terms, if at all. The system will not be taken down alone by me. I am done with the fight. Maybe the LMU students and other people who have my work will be invigorated, inspired ,and energetic enough to continue that fight. My birthday is at the end of October. I have a grandchild on the way. My moms birthday is tomorrow. Shout out to my sister Devon, who's birthday is today. I am going to look forward to those things. And to all of those who are homeless, keep going. Eventually things are going to get better. More people who have an abundance of things are going to begin trading receiving for giving, vanity for truth , and money for value.

I don't care what time or date it is. I am going to get some food and spend time with my family. I love you. Peace. 

-Kyle 

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8/21/19

8/12/19

7/21/19

While I have been grateful for the opportunity to exhibit patience ... cancer patients everywhere are still dying every day. After my genuine , consistent , and continuous cries for help ... cancer patients are still not being given adequate and proper treatment. I have provided the answer for the cure to all cancer and lived it in front of everyone ... but am being intentionally ignored by the same people and same businesses that were once so close to me , so embedded in my life , and were once seemingly so willing to help me. I am thinking about what those peoples true intentions always were. I am thinking about how I am ready to continue to exhibit as much patience as necessary in order for my voice to be heard. I am thinking about how I am prepared to be continuously ignored. I am thinking about how I am going to remain optimistic about the cure to cancer finally being shared with the masses ... no matter how long it takes. I understand that the longer this plays out ... the less validity that the people and businesses that were once so close to me , so embedded in my life , and were once so seemingly willing to help me and my cause will have. Revisionist history will eventually reveal the truth about those evil people and those manipulative businesses ... and I am ok with that. The masses are eventually going to understand what I have been able to conceptualize both about cancer , and about business. In the meantime ... cancer patients ... real people ... are still dying ... daily ... because of money.

NASA

The word NASA is derived from the Hebrew word "Nawshaw" ... which means to lead astray , to delude , or to morally seduce. The red part of the NASA logo contains a serpents tongue ... because snakes are symbolic of deception. Look at my post above this one for a visual example. The founder of NASA was a Nazi named Werner Von Braun. On his tombstone is Psalms 19:1 ... which in the Bible states ... "The heavens declare the glory of GOD; and the Firmament sheath his handiwork." His tombstone is a confession that he was a liar. The Firmament ... as described in the Bible ... is the ice dome that all humans are incased in ... which separates the waters from the waters. That is why when you look into a lake , you see reflections of trees. If there was no dome , there would be no reflection. The sun is the sum of all colors ... or the sum of our auras mixed together. Broken down ... the word "AURA" ... the AU in the periodic table ... stands for GOLD. The RA in the word Aura stands for the Egyptian GOD that personified the sun. The sun is the collective consciousness , GOLD is the sum of the colors of our auras ... and the sum of the Earth's auras are the sum of the Earth's emotions mixed together. We are our auras , we are the sun , and our light is part of the collective consciousness. Global warming is global consciousness getting smarter. Water holds emotion that is effected by consciousness ... both inside and outside of the body. Water is emotion ... or energy in motion. Consciousness is light ... or information. Humans are water and light. Humans are emotion and information. The earth is water and light. The earth is emotion and information. If humans do not access their emotion with their light , that water turns into ice. If humans do access their emotion with their light , that ice melts. If people do these simple correlations they will understand that Global Warming is the macrocosmic being that we are living in accessing and melting it's own emotion with it's own light. Global Warming is a good thing. NASA is trying to stop global warming , because they are part of the deception. Harvard is trying to block the sun and put fake ice on Antarctica , because they and the entire education system are a part of the deception. There is an Antarctica Treaty stopping anyone from going there ... because government is part of the deception. The light that humans have and demand would melt the ice. Broken down ... the word "governmental" means ... "govern the mental." There is no space. Everything is connected and one thing. Everything is just multidimensional. There is more water on the outside of the dome. The sun and moon are both incased inside of the dome. The moon is a piece of ice that is damaged. The moon is cancer. There is also a black sun that is rising. That symbol used to be represented worldwide by the swastika ... but was intentionally inverted by the Nazi's. The swastika is the Big Dipper constellation. The Big Dipper revolves around the star Polaris or North Star. The North Star is the brightest star in the sky , and the only star that does not move. The North Star is the source of energy for the macrocosmic being that we are living in. In the Bible , there was a really big flood. Global Warming is eventually going to cause another flood on Earth ... which is really going to be a big emotional release. It has all already been written. We are living in purgatory , in a net , and there is a plan (plan - net). We are living in Dante's Divine Comedy. This has all been a joke. The joke is about to be over for the real people who have real souls. There are a number of people on Earth who are simply not real ... but are here to test our moral compasses. Doomsday 2012 started a 7 year purging process , that is due to end during this Winter Solstice ... on 12/21/19. In 2020 ... the collective consciousness is going to break the ice wall and the world is going to go back to homeostasis. The living souls on Earth are not going to die.The 144,000 living souls needed to experience purgatory and time before experiencing bliss and forever. We are almost there. We were all always here for a reason. There is nothing to be afraid of. There never was. I have astral projected , left my body , and have been just my light. It was bliss. It was actually funny. Global Warming is a great thing. It is giving us information and making us smarter every day. It is melting away lies , and revealing truth. Let it burn.

7/10/19

7/8/19

6/21/19

I am thinking about how all of my friends are achieving their impossible dreams. I am thinking about when I will finally be acknowledged for persevering through what was was once thought to be an impossible nightmare. I am thinking about when I will finally be acknowledged as the author that lived through terminal cancer , conceptualized the cure to all cancer , and published the cure to all cancer. I am thinking about when my dream will finally come true.

6/21/19 9:42 pm

6/20/19

I am thinking about what I have to do for my cause to get the attention that it deserves. I am talking about cancer. I grew up with no dad. I have only met him three times. The first time I met my father , I was twenty-seven years old. I have forgiven him for the pain he caused my mother and I , because I understand that he was a black man that was a victim of the system. My mother and I grew up very poor. I remember at one point our rent was twenty-six dollars , because we were on welfare and subsidized housing. Despite being poor , my mother had enough resources to raise me into a gifted child upon entering kindergarten. I was always the best player on my baseball, basketball, and football teams. I was the pitcher, guard, and quarterback. My teams were always competitive. My teams have championships. I had a son at sixteen years old. I tried to sell drugs once, but my mom flushed the ounce of weed I was hiding in my ceiling down the toilet. She then decided to spank my very tough , smart , and athletic self. I never touched weed after that ... until over twenty years later when I was told I had terminal cancer. Despite having a son , I graduated high school. I was passed through because I was a star athlete. I skipped the entire eleventh grade. Nobody cared. Teachers would see me at McDonald's at noon with my jersey on and act like they didn't see me, because they wanted to see me play that night. I don't even remember the twelfth grade in the classroom , other than the water gun fight our teachers let us have on the last day. I never drank alcohol , smoked cigarettes , or partied in high school. I played sports , gambled , listened to music , and hung out with a special close few. It wasn't always safe outside. I have friends who were killed outside. I didn't want to go to college after high school because I didn't want to get a job. I saw how systems worked back then. I didn't want too much money. People with too much money get robbed where I am from. As long as I had enough money to do the things that I liked, I was always good. I didn't want to go to work from M-F from 9am to 5pm for the rest of my life. Does anyone want to work their life away? That is how a gifted child is supposed to think. I was smart enough and a patient enough gambler to know that I could flip my money at the casino. I snuck in and won money as a teenager. I ended up going to college anyway. I cried my entire first day because I was homesick. Basketball and the cafeteria kept me there for three years. I didn't drink , do drugs , or party in college. My urge to come home for more than weekends , holidays , and summers eventually became greater than my urge to finish school ... so I dropped out of college after my junior year. I then helped raise my son , got married , had a daughter ,  raised my family , coached basketball , played basketball , took trips , wrote a book , and just hung out with my family. I was fulfilled. I was an adult. Fortunately and unfortunately , my job location for over nine years closed down. I was forced to go back to school , because to every new company I was just another entry level employee with no degree. I went back to school for the knowledge , and the money. I got the knowledge this time. I was on the dean's list every semester until I graduated. I was my programs prize student. I then went on to work in a juvenile prison. I then went on to work as a case manager for children. I then went on to work in law enforcement. I excelled in all of those roles. I then got cancer. I had a huge event at William Allen High School to create awareness for myself , and my cause. Cancer. I covered it on my blog. Hundreds of tshirts with my name and cancer ribbons were given out. A bunch of sponsors names are on the back of those shirts. A multitude of different businesses were part of what was a really big event for a Stage IV Cancer patient. I could barely walk. I was one hundred and twenty-five pounds. I was in the middle of chemotherapy and radiation treatment. People cheered my name when they saw me. People cried when I spoke. I was given a journal that day. I was given a lot of love that day. I was given a lot of money that day. That was in September of 2015. I felt like a hometown hero. Unfortunately , the chemotherapy and radiation treatments failed. In November of 2016 , I was told that the cancer was in my lung and in my entire bloodstream. I was told that I had one year to live , and that I was going to die. I knew as a parent , son , man , gifted child , athlete , and college graduate ... I had to figure it out. I had to gamble. After surviving lung cancer surgery that I was told I may not wake up from , I had to step outside of the system , and do something new. I knew the system was leading me to death. I had to figure out the cure to cancer. A lot happened after my surgery. I took my children for a vacation across the country. I blogged it all. A lot more happened. I wrote about that too. To keep a long story short , I eventually published the book The DEATH OF a CANCER patient on May 31 , 2018. In my mind I was thinking that when I finished the book ... that my school , hospitals , businesses , everyone at my event , etc. etc. ... were going to literally take my book from my hand and immediately implement the method I used to heal , conceptualized , and articulated ... to every other cancer patient in the world. Yes I know how research , peer reviewed blah , blah , blah ... works. This was different. I was always different. I was always first , the leader , and the best. Simply put , all humans are the same. If you understand how to fix one cancer patient by using medical jargon , you can understand and explain how you can fix every cancer patient. I thought that considering my past resume , my assessed past intelligence , the fact that we were talking about terminal cancer , and the fact that I healed so well ... with an explanation ... that an immediate big response would be warranted by the powers that be. I have endured the struggles of my life before cancer. I then persevered through 3 Cisplatin chemotherapy treatments , 35 radiation treatments , the inside and outside of my throat being burned to black , no food or water for 8 months , pneumonia , various emergency room visits , appointments every day , all of BIG PHARMAS medicine , lung cancer , the death diagnosis , lung cancer surgery , the shame of revealing my truth , losing everything and everyone , homelessness , and threats to my life. I have done everything the right way. My son is 21 years old. He is a great kid, started varsity basketball , is a high school graduate , is a great boyfriend , has no kids , has a full time job , and has never been arrested. My daughter is gifted , athletic , etc. etc. etc. My children are a reflection of how I helped raise them , of their mothers , and of my character. My children and our relationships are a big part of my resume. The relationships with the mothers of my children are a big part of my resume. They are both very beautiful , loving , and respectful women and mothers. I am a dad , dad. I taught my kids the little things. I spent long days with them. I was at every big moment. I have never been arrested or in trouble with the law. My professional resume made me a lot of money , got me a lot of respect , and warranted a lot of attention ... before cancer. I have only strengthened it since then. Before cancer , I had one published book. I now have 5 published books. I have been very patient. I have had the best intentions. Meanwhile a lot of businesses that have been successfully unable to provide an answer to cancer patients continue to profit , while a lot of cancer patients continue to die using the unsuccessful healing options of profit first based businesses. I am not suggesting to people that what I know is the answer. I am telling them. I guess what I am asking at this point is ... how much longer will my story be ignored? Haven't I not endured enough pain in my life? What is holding me back? How much longer will money come before healing people? How many more naive , innocent , and hopeful cancer patients have to die before anything changes? How many more whistle blowers have to die before the masses collectively stand up and fight for what we all know to be true? What do I have to do to be validated? What else do I have to do for my cause to get the attention that it deserves , and for the entire world to change? I can endure the mental pain of being ignored. I am going to continue to be patient ... and not do anything to compromise myself , the cause , or warrant negative attention. Hopefully my cause will get the attention that it deserves ... soon. Below is an updated conceptualization of the cure to all cancer. 

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Cancer consultation example:

6/19/19 3:36 pm

The cure to cancer is all about externalizing dirty water ... or dirty emotion from the body. Your daughter either inherited emotion that her young mind is afraid to face , and / or collectively experienced trauma in her life that her mind is afraid to face. For example ... hypothetically speaking ... she could have watched a movie about dragons before bed one night. That night before bed she could have thought that a real dragon was really under her bed. Now as adults , our developed minds know that the dragon under her bed is not real. Now the mind of your adolescent daughter DEFINITELY 😵😱🤒 thinks that dragon under the bed is real. Now since she is a child and she is afraid to face that dragon, her mind buries that fear. Burying fear takes energy. In medical terminology , a buried fear is called a psychosomatic symptom. You can Google and fact check everything I write in my books, and here. The more scary thoughts or psychosomatic symptoms that our minds are afraid to face ... the more energy it takes for our minds to continuously hold in those thoughts ... resulting in less energy that we have to face the world and live in the present with. In short ... your daughter needs to externalize emotion. Now ... think about WHAT your daughter is. She started out as a piece of sperm from her father. Sperm is light trapped in water. The light is information. Water is emotion that is effected by her consciousness ... which is information ... or "her" light. YouTube DR. EMOTO and his research on water for the conceptualization of that fact. In laymen's terms ... her father inserted information and emotion into you as her mother through either sexual intercourse or artificial incimination. Some of those emotions could be suppressions. It would literally depend on what he is thinking about during intercourse or ejaculation. Now after conception ... that piece of sperm ... or information and emotion ... is molding with your information and emotion ... through the umbilical cord , your mind , and your heart. Now if you as her mother were suppressing emotion that you were afraid to face during your 9 month pregnancy ... you would transfer that dirty water ... or dirty emotion  ... to your child.Thats means your child ... and every child EVER ... was born with a baseline level of dirty water ... or suppressed emotion ... because most men and / or women suppress emotion at some level during either sex , while ejaculating, or while pregnant. A high level of collective suppressions would result in a baby being born with leukemia ... or cancer in the blood ... or with dis-ease within all of the emotions or chakras ... if enough dirty water is detected in the body of a baby at birth. Now if one specific emotion is being suppressed by the mother ... that emotion will be filtered to the part of the body that correlates with the chakra of the corresponding emotion. So to further the example ... if the mother of a child developed a fear of money ... dirty water ... which is emotion effected by consciousness ... would be transferred to the fetus in the womb from the mother through the umbilical cord into the "soul" or stomach of the baby. That emotion will then get filtered through the spine to be accessed by the pineal gland of the fetus ... then to the corresponding chakra of the emotion that the FETUS felt ... which in the money example would be the root chakra. That is ONE REASON why a baby would be born with ovarian cancer. Now the emotion of the fetus was DEFINITELY effected by the emotion of the mother ... because the mother and fetus share the same "soul" via the umbilical chord , and perception ... to an extent via shared felt emotions. That is why family members look a alike and think alike. They share water, and emotion. The difference would be the degree. Think weather , water , and light. Long story short ... your daughter is water and light. Her water needs to be purified. In order to do that , her dirty water ... or cancer ... needs to be drained. Again ... water holds emotion that is effected by consciousness. What that means is her light / third eye  /pineal gland consciousness ... is going to eventually see that dirty emotion dirty water with her light / awareness / perception ... and it is going to be dramatic. The cure to cancer has deep effects on relationships , because it reveals truth. Now ... how do you drain a human? With plants. If you put a plant in your daughter , it will absorb water ... and emotion. Your daughter will then have to externalize that plant , dirty water , and dirty emotion via tears, words, urine, and bowel movements. Plants on trees complete photosynthesis on the earth every day. If your daughter puts medical marijuana in her body ... it will have a psychoactive effect on her mind ... and her young mind will see her inherited trauma, her real trauma, and her self induced trauma. She will then need to externalize her psychosomatic symptoms via means of self expression , tears , words , urine , and bowel movements. Again ... water holds emotion that is effected by consciousness. If her consciousness / light / awareness / perception / third eye does not access that suppressed emotion ... or dirty water ... that suppressed emotion will result in a cancer tumor ... or a dirty piece of ice. Modern medicine does the exact opposite of medical marijuana. It attempts to sedate emotion and keep tumors in the body with side effects that patients can live with. It doesn't try to melt the ice. Life long patients assure lifelong business and lifelong money for a small few. I will stop there for now. Can you understand the correlations? If not , let your doctor , a psychiatrist, or psychologist read this. They can do the correlations , because this is their language. Then implement those procedures on your daughter immediately.

I wish you and her the best 🖤

-Kyle J. Kostic

6/12/19

Random honest thoughts during my daughters 8th grade graduation:

I am thinking about how while most people think that money is the root of all evil ... I think that creating systems that warrant receiving titles, attention, and achievements ... but also lead to unconscious motivation to perpetuate systems that do not benefit the masses for money and attention ... is even more evil.

I am thinking about operation paperclip, education, psychology, Nazi's, NASA, Wernher von Braun, his legacy, his tombstone, space, water, ice, the sun, the moon, the black sun, the North Star, the Swastika, Egypt, the pyramids, the Sphynx, gods, dogs, noses, eyes, lies, suppressions, energy, decpetion, confessions, the Bible, religious texts, scripture, culture, society, social hierarchy, language, music, the media, television, inverted truth, misled purity, false prophets, false preachers, false teachers, false healers, false leaders, false paths, fake love, fake laughs, fake smiles, fake success, fake wealth, and fake health. 

I am also thinking about true lies, true truth, true wealth, true health, true success, true smiles, true laughs, and true, true love.

I am thinking about how the Black girl and the Dominican girl who are performing are trying so hard , struggling , and failing to sing some z100 song at this assembly. I am internally laughing at the fake off beat non soulful claps from certain staff members. I am thinking about how awfully boring this is. I am thinking about watering plants, and I don't even have a garden. I am thinking about how lit this assembly would have been if the students sang to Cardi B. Everyone knows all of the words to all of her songs.

I am thinking about how the guest speaker at this assembly is a pure, kind, and good man with pure intentions. I am thinking about how we have a 30+ year relationship, and he is my friend.

I am thinking about how I would not post my feelings about a fake wedding on social media.

I am thinking about all of the attention that I am intentionally ignoring right now.

I am thinking about all of the people who are intentionally ignoring me right now.

I am thinking about how I was once a commencement speaker at a high school graduation, due to the fact the my book was used as part of student curriculum. I am thinking about how 4 books later, nobody knows who I am.

I am thinking about first world money in third world culture.

I am thinking about how the majority of minority students do not aspire to be like the majority of their leaders. The majority of child students who participate and are successful in these systems are so because they think being successful in these systems is a secure way to obtain money in this society. They are right. Majority leaders are smart enough to understand the influence of minority leaders and the influence that money has on everything else ... so majority leaders intentionally groom , indoctrinate, miseducate, and reward the best minority leaders with money and attention to perpetuate systems that do not benefit the masses ... especially systems that leave the remaining minorities at the bottom of the social hierarchy.

I am thinking about how I am embarrassed for the administration on stage at this assembly due to the fact that they know the performers, students, audience, janitors, and even themselves aren't into the second G - rated politically correct student musical performance of this assembly.

I am thinking about how the students literally boo'd the principal back to his seat and refused to hear his closing story, because this 2 hour assembly has been so boring, he is wack, and everyone just really wants to get out of here. I am thinking about how he conceptualized his speech by saying, "Go to college ... it is a sure way to get a job and make money."

I am thinking about South America, Africa, and Asia. 

I am thinking about Los Angeles, and Allentown.

I am thinking about how the youth of the future and the truth of forever are going to eventually outlive oppressive systems of the present and individualistic ideals of the past.

I am thinking about lunch.

6/12/19

6/2/19

Today is 6/2/19 at 3:54 am.

I am laying on the floor in the airport in Cincinnati, OH. I am headed back to Allentown.

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I just spent the last week back in Los Angeles. The majority of my time was spent at the spa. I slept there every night. I wanted to totally disconnect from the world, purify my body with water, and attempt to give myself clarity.

During my time at the spa I realized that I want a normal, simple, and quiet life. My social ambiguity is very important to me. I do not want a lot of attention. I do not want to be a show. I am an author. All I want is for my work to receive the attention that it deserves.

During my time in public in Los Angeles, I realized that my presence, my story, and my ability to articulate myself would bring me attention. What I also realized is that there are certain entities that do not want my presence, that do not want to hear my story, and that just want me to go away. The attention I would get would take away from the attention that they would receive, which would be bad for their businesses.

Those feelings apply to people as well. There are people who I was once friends with who no longer want to associate with me, because my relationship with them could be detrimental to their business relationships.

Knowing the cure to cancer has become my gift, and my curse. Saying that there is a cure to all cancer is too good to be true for a lot of people. Businesses understand this, and continue to provide the masses with false hope, using marketing schemes to funnel people into their ineffective profit based systems.

My heart is broken. I have compassion for everyone, on both sides. I understand people who want good lives for their families, and who will consciously perpetuate a system of oppression so they can feed their families. I also understand that people set up systems of oppression due to fear. I have compassion for those people too.

I still have hope. I have my health, and understand how to stay healthy. I know how to face, absorb, and release pain. I still have my patience. I still have faith. Even though I have cried an ocean full of tears, I know that I am going to be ok.

I am just going to go back home. I am going to stop pushing my story onto others. I am tired. I am just going to live a quiet and simple life. My books will eventually find their way. So will I.

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It is now 4:33 am. I am going to try to take a little nap before my flight.

Peace.

-Kyle

5/13/19

It is May 13, 2019, at 9:00 pm

Today was Cheese's birthday.

We sang.

We had cake.

We will have a party this weekend.
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Today I published my 5th book.

The book is entitled drips.

Drips is the sequel to the poetry book Drops.

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<3

-Kyle

It is May 9, 2019 at 12:41 pm 

I am sitting at the kitchen table.

I am about to eat. 

I am chilling. 

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I have a lot of written work that I have not realeased. 

Today I was fortunate enough to publish my 4th book. 

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The book is entitled drops

It is a collection of 31 single page poems about single simple topics. 

It almost feels like an album.

I am really really proud of it. 

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It is now 12:49 pm.

I am about to eat a ham and cheese sandwich. 

Peace. 

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-kyle

It is Friday, May 3, 2019... at 5:30 am.

I am sitting in the basement. Everyone in the house is asleep. I just came inside from a walk. I figured I would do some writing before I take Trell to school and go to the gym.

I really love history.

I have always been interested in it.

I remember having an Encyclopedia Britanica set before my first day of school. I remember seeing the Space Shuttle Challenger explode while sitting indian style on the classroom floor when I was in the first grade. I remember being in 5th grade when Desert Storm began. I remember being in chemistry class in 10th grade when the OJ verdict was announced. I remember text messaging my girlfriend in between playing the game Snake on my Nokia 3390 at 8:45am on the morning of 9/11/01 while I was at work. I remember watching Zietgest on my home Dell computer at 4am while also watching my son sleep on the couch and my daughter sleep in her swing. I remember the night when Trump won. I remember cancer.

It is now May 3, 2019. It is scary to even say that. This is where we are though. The past is history.

I have let go of my past. I want new shoes. I want new experiences. I want new money, new fun, and new love. I don't want to continue reliving my past, my parents past, or the past of previous generations.

I got really close to death. It is scary for me to even say that. I had to let go of my ego. I had to let go of my fear. I had to tell the truth about my past in order to free my mind and have a chance for a future. I had to face the truth about the lies that I told myself and forced myself to believe to be true for my entire life. That is scary. I then had to tell the truth about those lies. That was the scariest. That was the death of my ego. That was also the death of my cancer, and the rebirth of my health.

That is what it took for me to have more life. That is what it took for me to appreciate everything about every day. I had to look death directly in the face in order to bring myself back to life.

Again, it is now May 3, 2019. Facebook just banned Louis Farrakhan, Alex Jones, and a bunch of other outspoken figures due to their extremist opinions. I really don't have an opinion on that. I just figured I would post it since it is a current event.

Today I am not going to worry about the past. Today I am not going to worry about the internet. Today I am not going to worry about space. Today I am not going to worry about war, murder, technology, politics, or cancer.

Today I am going to ride my bike. Today I am going to go to the park. Today I am going to go to the gym. Today I am going to hang out with my friends and family in comfortable spaces. Today I am going to eat good food, listen to good music, relax, smoke, and chill. Today I am going to continue just being history.

Being in public is really difficult for me, but today I am going to do it. I have to keep letting people ignore me, my work, and my results... while I continuosly produce better results than those people. I have to continue to be polite, patient, and welcoming. I have to continue to remain poised. I am in a position where time is on my side. I have already weathered the hardest part of the storm. The hardest part of my work is done. I have figured out how to stay healthy. I published a book that is the blueprint to cure to all cancer. I now have to patiently wait out what should be a difficult final stretch in a worldwide paradigm shift.

I am going to.

It is now 6:35am. My laptop screen is still really messed up, but that is ok. I just received a neat little folding bluetooth keyboard that I am excited to use with my tablet. I am excited to use them both in an attempt to make new history... or maybe just to make new fun things.

We will see.

Peace.

Love,

Kyle

It is April 29, 2019 at 6am. I am talking to two of my family members. One of them is about to go to work. The other one is heating up food in the microwave and talking about work. I am sitting at my laptop with its cracked screen... working.

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This blog began as an effort to share a real live cancer experieince. I feel like that expereince is now over. I have the books, this blog, and my condition as the proof. I do not want to talk about cancer anymore. I am not going to. Everything I just mentioned is enough. I am not going to go on a book tour, press run, or do anything else. I am just going to live my life. I am just going to be a dad. I am going to release more books, but not centered around cancer. Before I let cancer go, I wanted to provide one last simple conceptualization in this post.
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Simply put, all humans are water. Water holds emotion that is efffected by our own consciousness. That has been proven by the work of Dr. Emoto. Through induced meditation with medical marijuana after I had surgery on my lung, I completed photosynthesis in my unconscious mind. I confronted, re-evaluated, and released the trauma that was associated with the psychosomatic symptoms in my unconscious mind. I got so high that I saw all of the trauma in my mind literally beginning from the moment I attempted to conceptualize a kaleidescope. I saw the first time I was yelled at, disciplined, fell off a bike, and everything else. 

I eventually built up the heart to release all of my collective suppressions by means of verbal and written self expression. The light from my awareness melted the ice / emotion that my heart was hiding and that my brain was afraid to view. Once my mind released that fear / emotion / water ... my light / truth was no longer afraid to be free. When I told the truth my dirty water / dirty emotion literally came out of my mouth, and I instantly began to heal. 

I have since learned how to intentionally put myself in situations where my consciousness is going to be positively effected, positively effecting my body, and continuously keeping my mind and body healthy. PTSD is the step down from cancer. You lose everything as a result of revealing the truth. Medical Marijuana makes you fractalize and fragment moments... intuitively giving you positive energy through the experience of feeling positive emotion... intuitively healing your body. It helps people concentrate on positive stimuli when going through trauma. Eventually the old and new positive stimuli overcomes the negative, the person moves through their trauma, and the person can be functional again. Again, my experience is an example of this. 

People are smart enough to do these correlations. This can be applied to everyone. I know 170 billion dollars were spent on the top 35 medications that were not medical marijuana in 2018. I know medical marijuana being the cure to cancer is terrible for business. At this point my question is, at what point do people come before money? 

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It is now 6:15 am. 

I am about to take Trell to school, go work out, and go take a nap. 

I am excited about the future. I feel grounded. I feel like I have found a purpose. 

Time to get to work. 

Peace. 

-Kyle <3

It is Saturday, April 27, 2019 at 10:17am. I am sitting at the kitchen table. I just got back from my morning walk and eating breakfast at Burger King. It is very quiet in the house. I have my headphones on, but I don't have any music on. I can hear myself typing. Everyone else in the house other than me is sleeping.

My laptop screen is really messed up. I can barely see the bottom right hand corner. Even though my laptop is going to fade to black and die at any moment, it has been worth every penny. I got really good use out of it. I finshed my last 2 books using the least expensive laptop that Walmart had available. I am proud of that.

I deleted my Facebook account today. I just couldn't look at Facebook, what it has become, and what it has made people become anymore. I am no exception to that. Facebook definitely had and still has value for some. I just had to stop using it. While I did get value out of using Facebook before, it is no longer bringing value to my life today.

I just started using social medial less than 4 years ago. I quickly realized a lot of things get missed in between the lines on social media platforms. While Facebook began as a place for sharing, it has become a place of judgement. I have decided that continoulsy exposing myself to the constant judgement of others has no longer become healthy or beneficial for me. Instead of using Facebook as a platform for my work, voice, and causes... I am going to continue to use this blog, my Instagram, and my in person interactions as platforms for my work, voice, and causes instead.

It is now 10:47am.

It is windy outside, but the sun is definitely out.

I am going to go walk up to my sons house, and hang out with everyone up there until it is time for my daughters game.

Peace.

-Kyle

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edit: 4/11/19

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Fundraiser update:

It is now April 11, 2019. I published the book, "The DEATH OF a CANCER patient" on March 31, 2018. I went from a terminal cancer patient in 2016 to being in the best shape of my life today. My entire story was documented on this blog, on my Instagram https://www.instagram.com/kylekostic , and in my books Part I and Part ii . The intention of this campaign is to get attention. I want to use this money to spread this information. In order to spread information in this world, you need attention. In order to gain attention, you need to earn money. Once I receive the attention that I seek, it is my intention to have the method that I used to heal from a terminal cancer diagnosis implemented on every other cancer patient in the entire world. My books are the conceptualization, articulation, and implimentation of that method. My current physical conditon is the proof that the method in my books works. With that being said, I am keeping the orignally requested amount of money the same. I initially received $21,060. That helped me through some very rough times. I am exteremely grateful for every donation. My intention of writing these books was to give back. I was given a journal at my Hoops for Hope cancer Event in September of 2015. These books are result. This is the cure to cancer. Believe in me. Invest in me. I have the purest of intentions. I have had everything in the world that money can buy. My experience has taught me that health is wealth. I now want to provide that wealth to the world. It is April, 11, 2019. The time is now. This is the cure to cancer. Believe in me.

https://www.gofundme.com/kylekostic

Love, Kyle James Kostic

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books

Global Warming

It is March 11, 2019... at 7:51pm. I am chilling at the kitchen table. My hands are cold. I just came inside from a long walk. I know that blogging about my thoughts will warm my hands up. I am good.

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The earth is vibrating.

The technical term for the vibrating of the earth is the Schumann Resonance.

Humans are a part of the Earth, which means they are also a part of that vibration and the Schumann Resonance.

During THISpost I explain in detail using references and sources how water holds emotion.

The facts that I state below can be fact checked and explained in detail by the post above.

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Humans are 70 percent water.

The Earth is 70 percent water.

The heart of each human is 70 percent water.

Water holds emotion whether it inside or outside of the body.

Air is a less dense form of water.

A constant water exchange between the Earth and each human is done between each human and the earth via the breath at every moment.

If emotion is suppressed in the body, that air/water/emotion/energy in motion becomes ice.

Ice holds suppressed emotion whether it is inside or outside of the body.

Trees literally communicate with each other. Trees are neurotransmitters. They see, listen to, and talk to each other about everything humans do. They do everything that neurotransmitters do in the human body. Refer to this BBC article for a more in depth explanation on how trees communicate:

http://www.bbc.com/earth/story/20141111-plants-have-a-hidden-internet

The light of the sun and the light in the our pineal glands is the same light.

The average temperature of the earth is 58.3 degrees.

The average temperature of each human is 98.6 degrees.

When a person gets sick, their temperature rises.

It is because the light from their pineal glands is dedicated to their bodies suppressions.

The energy dedicated to suppressing trauma, lies, fear, anxiety, or any other combination of suppressions makes the body hot, tired, and sick.

Ice is ice, whether it is inside of a body or not. Ice cubes are cancer, just like icebergs are cancer.

They are both controlled forms of emotion.

Emotion needs to be free flowing.

Fat is emotion that is free flowing through the body that a person is conscious of, but is still internalizing and suppressing. You can correlate the type of emotion that people are internalizing by where the fat is stored on a person, due to the fact that the suppressed emotion of a person is filtered through the chakra system.

An exception to that rule are people who are not physically or mentally affected by internalizing emotion, due to the fact that those people do not have any shame or guilt.

Those "people" are literally the devil.

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There are a lot of humans that have cancer on this earth. There are a lot of disproportioned and imbalanced people on this earth that have not been diagnosed with cancer that will be if they do not change their patterns and redirect their energy.

There is a lot of ice on this earth.

That means there is a lot of suppressed emotion on the actual earth itself.

The cure to healing my cancer was melting my ice and externalizing my water.

It was that simple.

Global warming is really the melting of the suppressed emotion or cancer of the being that we are living in.

People think that Global Warming is the end of the earth.

It isn't.

Global Warming is the earth completing photosynthesis/meditation, releasing its truth/emotion, and coming back to balance.

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Humans complete photosynthesis in the body via meditation.

During the meditation process in the body, this process begins in the soul or stomach.

We are living in the 3rd dimension.

This process starts in the 3rd chakra of the body.

During the meditation process, the soul travels from the stomach to the 3rd eye in the mind.

That takes the awareness of the soul from the 3rd chakra of the body to the 6th chakra of the body.

That process takes a persons awareness from the 3rd dimension to the 6th dimension.

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The physical location of the Aurora Borealis or soul of the Earth is the Northen Lights in "Iceland."

Here is a picture...

There is a dome that covers the Earth.

It is called the Firmament in the Bible.

Why are the plants of the earth green?

Why do you see the reflection of landscapes in lakes?

It is because the light/energy/information/truth from the Aurora Borealis is reflecting off of the dome that is covering the Earth, is being filtered through the sun/3rd chakra/soul, and is then dispersed through the air/emotion of the earth.

The result is a green planet, and beautiful reflections in water:

The light from the Aurora Borealis is green because it is eminating from the 4th Chakra, or the heart of the Earth.

The sun IS the 3rd Chakra.

The moon is CANCER.

Everything is a thought.

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The Earth is getting warmer, the days are getting longer, and the moon is damaged because the energy from the heart chakra and the light from the people on Earth is eminating into the soul, the 3rd dimension, the 3rd chakra, or the Earth.

The energy from the heart is powering the Solar Plexus Chakra, killing the false light or false truth of the moon, and restoring the Earth back to its intended balanced state.
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The sun on Earth is up for about 16 hours a day.

That means the soul or awareness of the being we are living in is internally focused on its soul for 16 hours a day.

That means the being we are living in is either meditating for 16 hours a day, sleeping for 16 hours a day, or is daydreaming for 16 hours a day.

The meditation, sleep, and daydreaming process transfers truth from the soul to the mind. The photosynthesis/meditation process that is occurring on earth is literally the earth or the soul of the being we are living in internally reflecting and opening up to its own heart and own truth.

Throughout my life I was not letting ALL of the light from my heart move into my soul, up to my mind, and then throughout my body. The fear in my soul was only letting parts of my light get to my awareness in my 3rd eye. That means that the energy that I externalized and the person I became was merely a fraction of the person that I was "designed" to be. I never followed my heart, followed my own souls dreams, and never attempted to be my best self while maintaining humilty, integrity, and respect for others.

It wasn't until I learned the game, that I realized that I let the game control me.

My internalized suppressions continuously blocked the light from my soul. That soul would never reach my 6th chakra. It was getting continuously pushed back to my 3rd chakra by my 6th chakra, and internally cycled through my 4th and 5th chakras. That is why I had both lung cancer and throat cancer. No energy was reaching those areas of my body because that is where my awareness was storing my trauma, lies, and fears. The emotion, e-motion, or energy in motion resulted in the formation of ice or cancer tumors in both my 4th and 5th chakras, or my lung and throat.

The earth has cancer. Global warming is not the end of the earth. Global warming is the end of the cancer on earth. The temperature of the earth would actually balance out if everyone told the truth. The collective conscious would get stronger, the frozen water on the earth would melt, the temperature of the earth and the melted ice will come into balance, and the earth would again become the garden that it was initially intended to be.
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Nikola Tesla talked about the numbers 3, 6, and 9 being the keys to the universe.

In every situation in life, we have to make choices.

Tesla was trying to suggest to humanity how to energenitcally make the most efficeint choices in each moment.

His ability to efficiently harness and process energy would create patterns for humans that would lead to them always being on their best vibration, which would ultimately lead to everyone living their best lives without anyone having to suffer.

He cross referenced and applied this logic to his inventions and technology by creating and producing many energy efficient products.

In it's simplest form, Tesla was trying to tell people that the best way to use their energy efficiently was to approach each choice by literally connecting to the earth, losing their fear, and letting their truth fully eminate from their souls, 3rd chakra, in the 3rd dimension.

That energy will then be received by the mind and the 6th chakra, and used to explore intuition, imagination, and wisdom from a persons soul and the collective consciosness in the 6th dimension during the meditation process.

The intuition, imagination, and wisdom that started from the soul and was formed in the 3rd eye will then be expressed by the body, the "creation," the 9, or the unduplicatable choice that is made in each moment.

That is how far Tesla broke down energy and the universe, without the internet.

In 2019 with all of the resources that I have on my lap combined with my life experiences and baseline intelligence, I should be figuring this stuff out.

Props to Tesla for figuring out all of this stuff out will a fraction of the resources that I have at my disposal.

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I started the informational part of this post by stating that the Earth is vibrating, and that the vibration is called the Schumann Resonance.

That vibration is sound.

The number 7.83 is the frequency that the earth is vibrating on.

That number is too high.

That means humans are being too loud.

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If we take average the 3 and the 6 in Tesla's method, we would get a 4.5.

That would fall in between the 4th and 5th chakras, the 4th and 5th dimensions, and ultimately love, peace, and truth.

In order to get the frequency of the earth from a 7.83 to a 4.5 using the Teslas method... the earth or the heart would need to vibrate at a level of 1.17.

That means the people of the earth would need to focus on mastering the positive aspects of the emotions that correlate with the first and second chakras.... especially the first. We need to not focus so much on money or financial independence in the Root Chakra, but rather supplying the body with the correct balance of light, food, water, and security. We also need to learn how our bodies work, how to intentionally filter through our own emotions, and how to filter the dirty water from our own bodies without the system that has failed so many for so long.

That means the earth needs externalize emotion, slow down, and quiet down.

That means humans need to stop, rest, and self reflect.

That means the people who are attempting to block the sun need to start telling the truth.

The earth and the llusionary aspects of society would crumble if the truth was revealed.

Rebuilding the earth using the 3, 6, 9 process would insure that a new world built on a balanced vibrational foundation would create patterns that would make the lives of the collective soulful, efficient, and creative.
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I use marijuana as medicine.

Here is why:

Every time I inhale a breath of air combined with plants, my on average 98.6 degree body inhales an on average of about 58.3 degree air combined with the truth of the light that is being extracted from the burning plant I am enhaling. I internalize the cold emotion of the earth to my heart, my soul disperses it, my mind faces it, and my soul lets it go when I exhale the smoke, write blog posts, have verbal conversations, and work out.

My body gets cold when I smoke marijuana. Within a few minutes, my body temperature eventually recalibrates. Despite my body temperature coming back to normal at the completion of this process, every time I complete this process my body secures a little more light, my soul receives more of its purpose, and the planet gets a little bit warmer.

Imagine if the enitre Earth did this.

The temperature of the Earth would increase to the point where more land would be inhabitable, more plants would grow, and more people could have more freedom and live out their dreams.

Or maybe I am just dreaming.

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It is now March 12, 2019... at 11:43 am.

It is weird that GOD is spelled DOG backwards.

It is intesting that the Sphinx in Egypt is the combination of a human and a CAT.

Duality is weird.

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I am going to take a nap.

I am going to wake up.

I just don't know when.

Duality is weird.

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Peace.

-Kyle <3

It is Saturday, February 23, 2019, at 4:34pm

I am in Tristan's room sitting up against the wall typing on my laptop.

It is really quiet in here.

The screen crack on the right side of my laptop is starting to get really big.

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On this day two years ago I intuitively left everything I had ever known, embarking on a never looking back adventure of a lifetime. My intent on that journey was to show my children as much of this country as I could, embed them with as much wisdom as I could, and have as much fun with them as I could along the way before I died.

Despite being given a literal grave prognosis, I didn't wholeheartedly believe that I was going to die.

With that being said, my circumstances left me extremely afraid.

I was afraid that I was going to miss certain moments in the lives of my children. I was afraid that my children were going to miss me in those moments. I was afraid that people that I loved but was not completely honest with throughout my life were eventually going to hear my truth from others after I passed away. I did not want any of those things to happen.

Ironically it was facing those fears. speaking my truth, and literally submitting to my untimely death that kept me alive.

After making a full recovery, I am now back home. I am now unafraid of missing anything. I am now really healthy.

I don't really have much else to say about cancer.

As I sit here in this bed and look back at my cancer experience, all I can do is smile. I have no other choice. I cannot sit here and dwell on all of the negative things that have happened in the past as a result of me being honest. Everyone that was affected by my truth has moved on. I endured my karma. All of those cycles have concluded. Today is a new day.

Today I have a lot to be happy about. I am happy that I am not in any pain. I am happy that I am laying in a bed in a room with a door that I can close. I am happy that I had the privilege of cooking and eating bacon and eggs this morning. I am happy that I was able to play full court basketball at LA Fitness this morning. I am happy with my relationships. I am happy with the people I interact with. I am happy with the 3 hour nap I took today. I am happy that I discovered vortex math. I am happy with my walks. I am happy with my life's legacy. I am happy that I am not doing anything tonight. I am happy in my solitude. I am happy with my peace. I am happy. 

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It is now 6:03pm. I am finished writing for now.

A lot of my time was spent daydreaming in between typing anyway.

I am going to walk to go get something to eat.

I said that out loud.

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-Kyle <3

Today is February 18, 2019. Today is President's Day. Tonight there is going to be what is being called a "Super Snow Moon." Last night was the NBA All-Star game. Team Lebron beat Team Giannis by a score of 178-164. I did not watch any of the game. I just finished writing everything below. I wrote this paragraph last. Stay with me.

This blog is slowly coming to an end. I have covered everything I have learned in reference to healing from cancer. This post is another revelation that I recently had in reference to my experience. I felt like the information I conceptualized would be valuable for others to hear, which is why I am sharing that information on my blog here today.

Prior to cancer, I achieved pretty much everything I had ever wanted in my life. That wasn't necessarily always a good thing though. I did not always have the best intentions. Some of the positive things that I eventually obtained in my life also came with another set of negative things that I did not intentionally ask for.

The result of my pursuits eventually led to me losing a lot of the things that I had worked for, led to cancer, and led to me almost losing my life. Fortunately enough for me, my personal moral code and my positive intentions and actions were just good enough for karma not to have killed me after the confession of my sins.

After I lost just about everything other than my own life for revealing my truth, I rebuilt myself from my zero point. My zero point is what I call the lowest point of my life. When I hit my zero point, my intuition immediately told me I was going to be fine. I intuitively knew that my life could not get any worse, and that the only place that I could go from the bottom was up.

Roughly 15 months after I hit my zero point, I released the book, "The DEATH OF a CANCER patient."

I released my book on May 31, 2018... which was about 10 months ago.

Now I knew what my book was when I completed it. If implemented properly and in good timing... the method included in my book really is the cure to all cancer.

I really did have cancer. I took pictures, videos, and wrote about my experiences on my blog from day one. You all saw me in person. Everyone has seen the pictures.

I moved to California and did legal medical cannabis at the beginning of a paradigm shift in this country. Nobody really knew how it worked. I figured that out. I then wrote about it. I then explained why me healing was NOT a miracle via my blog and my book, while simultaneously explaining how the method included in my blog and my book can be cross referenced and applied to all other humans. Everyone saw that too.

The people I meet for the first time in person cannot believe that I am one year past the date that doctors predicted that I would pass away from terminal cancer. Due to my current physical condition, they cannot even believe that I ever had cancer. People cannot even believe that I am 38 years old.

The things that I figured out about health during my cancer journey have really helped me keep my body in the best condition that it can be in. Sometimes I am lazy and unmotivated, but that coincides with my PTSD. Mental illness is the next step down from physical cancer. In doing my own self assessment, I am on the low end of the PTSD spectrum. To me that means that I am at peace with just about all of my past trauma.

I have endured a lot of pain in my life. Every morning that I wake up, I intentionally face that trauma. I eventually get through it, which then eventually helps me get through my day. Getting through that pain first helps me concentrate on whatever I am attempting to focus on during my day. Understanding that I have endured a lot of pain and a lot of adverse situations up to and including accepting my own death prior to cancer surgery helps me alleviate any anxiety that may come up during difficult moments throughout my day. If I suppress my emotions about my trauma they will eventually manifest during my day, which will then take away from what I am attempting to focus on and the wholeness of my day. After I face all of my past, present, and future fears at my zero point, I then have the will and the strength to take on any adverse conditions that I may face during my day.

The cure to cancer is similar to the cure for obesity. If a person is overweight and can endure progressively increasing physical workouts, eat healthy, and can get proper rest... most people under those circumstances will eventually get into shape. If a person with cancer is willing to endure the progressively increasing mental workout of facing their trauma, is willing to continuously face and release a lifetimes worth of pain through means of self expression, and is willing to mentally rest on the fact that what they have left in their life is meaningful and is a blessing... I believe that most people who have been diagnosed with cancer can and will eventually heal themselves.

I am 38 years old, a college graduate, have 2 children, a decorated resume, 3 published books, and have no criminal record. My books literally explain how I healed, and how others can heal tool. My blog, pictures, and videos showed the world in real time how I did it. I can verbally explain the cure to cancer in multiple ways to multiple people who have multiple levels of understanding.

A lot of people know who I am. I know a lot of people in a lot of high level positions in modern American society. These people have a lot of power. These people can make real change. They all know my story. I have done my due diligence, and used my resources to send my books and my information to these entities and to these particular people in hopes of getting this information to the masses. I have both professional and personal relationships with these people. These people are smart enough to conceptualize, synthesize, and understand all of the information that I have presented. These people are qualified enough to validate my claim that what I have written and can explain is the cure to ALL cancer. I am talking about people who are really connected. I am talking about people who are really, really, smart. I am talking about people who are powerful enough to change the entire world as we know it, if they really wanted to.

The fact that these entities and these people have been quiet for so long after I have presented them with my work makes me question their intent. It makes me disheartened, tired, and apathetic at times. It makes me wonder if the people at the top of the social hierarchy in America were trained to teach complicated fractalized versions of non complicated concepts in an attempt to profit from the intentionally misguided and miseducated people at the bottom of the social hierarchy. It makes me question if the people who are in high level positions of power in modern American society are really gatekeepers of the truth, instead of genuine leaders who are attempting to teach and spread real truth.

Our President and our government figures are not people that I aspire to be like. I do not believe that our President and our leadership has the best intentions for the people of the collective. Our president doesn't speak to women or people like a man, leader, or a human being should. He doesn't show gratitude, compassion, respect, or genuine love.

I can explain the cure the cure to cancer. I know the cure to climate change too. He cannot do any of those things.

Even though what I have learned through my experience can help humanity, the leadership of the world does not want what I have learned to reach the masses. The truth about cancer and the truth about climate change will lead to an unprecedented unraveling of history. Most history as we know it will have to be changed. There will also be a "flood" on this earth as Noah, Divinci, and a lot of other historians have figured during their time here on Earth.

Some mainstream science is already talking about the shifting of the poles of the Earth. The real truth cannot be hidden forever. Global warming is the melting of suppressed emotion, and the revealing of the truth. That truth is a threat to leadership, the current regime, and the current way of life as humanity knows it. That truth is a threat to this illusionary world.

I know the truth, understand the truth, and am no longer afraid to speak the truth. Those facts make me a threat in this game that we are all playing. 

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We all live on a "planet."

Planet = Plan + Net

My mind has literally been to the "Ethernet," or the etheric place on this planet where the "plan" of earth (the word earth is an anagram for heart) is encapsulated in a "net."

This is how the sky, the ethernet, and humans look like when we initially die, when our awareness astral projects, and our souls leave our bodies. They all literally look like "nets."

This is what the sky looks like when our awareness, soul, sol, light, sun, etc. etc. views it from inside our three dimensional bodies from the human eye:

The Etheric Plane is the truth. That is why the color of the sky is blue. It is the color of the throat chakra. The truth is spirit. The truth is literally air, which is literally a thinner version of water.

Clouds are thoughts that hold emotion. White clouds are pure thoughts and pure emotions. Rain clouds are distorted emotional thoughts. Rain is the release of that emotion. Snow is the melting of hardened emotion of the Firmament(reference the Bible) that our earth is encased in.

We cannot literally see air with the limited perception of our eyes when our awareness is inside of our bodies. On the contrary, our awareness and our soul can literally see air and everything else at a laser level of precision when our awareness is outside of our bodies and the net of the earth.

The Etheric Plane is where the awareness of humans meets the awareness of the sun. The Etheric plane is a where the consciousness of one person can be shared with the consciousness of the all that ever was, is, and ever will be... and vice versa. It is where the separation of duality occurs and where the oneness resides. It is where archetypes were created. It is the "Net" where the information and the "Plan" of the "Heart" is located. Gravity and the light are pulling this net inward towards the core of the earth. That is where all of the secrets of the Earth are kept and the plan for this simulated reality are revealed. While we all can go to this place if we want, we all cannot stay their for too long. Unless we want to permanently leave the illusion that is this Earth, our bodies, and our lives as we know them for good... our consciousness combined with the collective consciousness had to collectively make the choice for me to leave the Etheric Plane and come back into this body.

There are a few different ways that the mind of each human can reach this place for short periods of time in an effort to bring back useful information for the collective. If we sit in nature and absorb the sun, we intuitively receive information in reference to what our personal purpose is for the collective of humanity. If we engage in activities that get us self actualized, our mind intuitively operates from this space, and our bodies will then intuitively absorb this new information while engaged in these activities. If we intentionally ingest plant medicine and meditate on our intentions, the inhibitors in our body open up so our awareness can search and bring back what we seek from the space of the ether.

The simplest way to access this place is to set your intentions before bed and to simply go to sleep. If your unconscious mind is clear, you should be able to reach the ether. If your unconscious mind is not clear or you have anxiety about the future, your sleep might take you to that information instead of the Etheric plane. The result of those experiences are usually nightmares.

Then there is DMT.

My awareness, soul, sol, light, sun, etc. went to the Ethernet while participating in a healing ceremony while I was outside of the country. Dimethyltryptamine(DMT) is in every plant, and in every human. The intention of this ceremony was for me to open my body, go to the etheric plane for the cure to cancer, and then come back to my body and give that cure to myself and to the world. That is literally what I did. My book was the result:

The famous artist Alex Grey attempted to conceptualize his DMT journey in some of his most famous art. Below (in my opinion) is Alex attempting to conceptualize what happened when the awareness of his body initially attempted to intentionally leave his body while on DMT to become one with the sun.

The Spongebob character hides a lot of this information metaphorically in plain sight. The first picture below is an example of what would happen when someone comes back from a DMT journey and the etheric plane. The result of that process is acute schizophrenia... or the mind being flooded with too much awareness/information/light/truth. As displayed in the second picture below, that light then forces self expression or the release of emotion/water from the body.

There is so much more to Spongebob, but I will stop there for now.

The throat chakra is the 5th Chakra, which is why this etheric plane is considered by many as being the 5th dimension.

Once you are in this state and in this dimension, your awareness can literally go to the level of the creator. Everything moves really, really, slow. For example.. your awareness can see the intricate details of how a flower was created while in this state. This process starts with the splitting of the vesica piscis OR starting with the Fibonacci Sequence spiral, depending on what vibration you are on.

Elon Musk has a pet snail named Gary by the way.

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I have done enough writing on my blog for the day.

I am about to go for a really, really, slow walk in nature. 

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Love, 

Kyle