Tuesday, October 20, 2020
Thursday, October 8, 2020
Tuesday, September 1, 2020
Friday, August 21, 2020
8/22/20
It is Saturday August 22, 2020, at 12:46 am. Last night the Los Angeles Clippers beat the Dallas Mavericks 130-122 in Game 3 of the First Round of the NBA playoffs. I am currently sitting on my balcony, typing on my phone, and listening to nature.
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The Earth is still in the middle of a global pandamemic. A disease being called coronavirus is still killing a lot of people every day.
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During this pandemic, I have been doing a lot of watching, listening, and learning. I have been continuously taking in new information, synthesizing new information with information that I have already learned, releasing all outdated and incorrect information that is no longer of use to me, and continuously reconfiguring and refining my perception of the Earth. During this pandamemic, what I have been doing is performing photosynthesis on the Earth, and on myself.
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During this pandamemic, I have been taking a lot of walks. On my walks, I do a lot of thinking. While I was on one of my walks, I came to a realization.
I realized that while I was doing photosynthesis on the Earth, the Earth is and has always been doing photosynthesis on me.
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When I was a child, I saw the movie the Terminator. During a scene in the movie, Arnold Schwarzenegger's character was looking into the mirror. He had been through a lot of trauma, and his body was extremely damaged. He was looking into the mirror to best determine how he could heal himself.
At some point during the scene, Arnold's character took out his eye. It was too damaged to salvage. After taking out his eye, Arnold continued to attempt to save the rest of his body with just one eye.
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At a point in my life after I had been through a lot of trauma, I walked into the bathroom, and looked at myself in the mirror. I had tears in my eyes. While I was crying, I lifted up my eyelid.
At that moment, I realized that if I took out my own eye, "I" still would be able to function. "I" then realized that even if I chopped off my own arm, took out a piece of my own rib, or even cut off a piece of my own lung, "I" would still be the thing that made me, "me."
I then looked at my eyes in the mirror and asked myself the question...
What am "I" ???
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At my earliest and purest form, "I" was a piece of sperm. "I" have previously learned that a piece of sperm is light surrounded by water. I have previously learned that light is consciousness, and that water holds emotion. I have previously learned that consciousness is information, and that conscious information is electric.
What does all of that mean?
If "I" can take out parts of my body and still function, that means that I am not really my body.
If "I" exchange air with the Earth during every breath of my life, that means I am not my breath, air, or emotion.
What that means is that at my purest form, "I" am an electric piece of conscious information.
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In my 3rd dimensional form on Earth as an adult human, "I" am an electric piece of information, surrounded by water, covered in skin. In my 3rd dimensional form on Earth as an adult human, I am a "cell."
In my 3rd dimensional form on Earth as an adult human, "I" breathe and exchange air with the planet for 24 hours a day. What that means is that the Earth also holds emotion. In my 3rd dimensional form on Earth as an adult human, I absorb light from the planet for 24 hours a day. What that means is that the Earth holds both emotion and consciousness.
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Throughout my life, "I" was told that the Earth was round, and that "we" lived on a "planet" in a place called "space." My life experiences and the information that I have received throughout my life has made me come to understand that the conscious and emotional space called Earth is actually the macrocosmic Heart of the conscious and emotional being that we are living inside of.
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During my daily walks, I like to look at nature. When I look at the Earth with a different level of perception... trees become nuerotransmitters, clouds become suppressed thoughts, rivers become conscious suppressions, icebergs become unconscious suppressions, thunder becomes a paradigm shift, rain becomes externalized emotion, oceans become blood, Antarctica becomes a really big piece of suppressed emotion, and the Firmament becomes a really solid collection of emotions that surround the heart of GOD.
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During my walks, I like to sun gaze. After sun gazing for a while, receiving information, and doing correlations... I realized that the sun was not what I always what I thought it was. As my eyes became acclimated to the brightness of the sun, I realized that the sun was not what I had always been told. I realized that there was a rim around what I thought was the "sun." I also realized that through the rim "around" the sun, that light was swirling into the Earth. After continuing to do correlations, I realized that what was really happening was that there was a hole in the suppressed emotion surrounding the Heart of the Earth, and the information from the Solar Plexus Chakra of the macrocosmic being that we are living inside of was penetrating the hole and was being received by both the microcosmic cells of the Earth and the macrocosmic Heart Chakra of the being that us cells are living inside of. I also realized that the information being received from the Solar Plexus Chakra by the Heart Chakra moves the hole that covers the Heart of the Earth. That is what causes the weather. Emotion and consciousness are attempting to get INTO the heart. When the hole is away from a cluster of cells, that cluster of cells does not receive as much light from the Solar Plexus Chakra, and night time occurs.
The moon is also inside of the Heart of the being that we are living inside of. The moon is suppressed ice that is trapping suppressed light. The moon is unconscious suppressed emotion that is trapping unconscious suppressed consciousness... or unconscious suppressed information. It is damaged because the macrocosmic being that we are living inside of is opening its heart to its solar plexus chakra, is receiving information that correlates with self confidence, self control, and self worth to the macrocosmic heart of itself and to the microcosmic human cells of the Earth.
What that means is that Global Warming is the process of the Heart of the macrocosmic being that we are living inside of receiving suppressed information of self confidence, self control, and self worth from its own Solar Plexus Chakra... causing it to melt its own conscious and unconscious suppressed heart spaced emotion... causing it to receive unconscious suppressed information of peace, love, and joy... leading to it opening its Heart Chakra... causing the cells of the Earth to have more self confidence, self control, self worth, love, peace, and joy... causing the hearts and heart chakras of the people of the Earth to open.
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Is Global Warming going to eventually melt the moon and the suppressed emotion that is covering the suppressed information of love, peace, and joy of the macrocosmic being we are living in?
Is that what revelations is about?
Are certain cells not going to be able to receive and process the information that is going to be received?
Are certain cells a part of a mind virus intentionally attempting to give the heart of the Earth dis-ease? Is that why certain people are called "dis-ease" experts, and not "ease" experts? Are certain types of cells trying to kill other certain types of cells?
Will the suppressed emotion and cold cells of the mind, crown, or "corona" virus crush the heart of the Earth? Will the dream end, will all of our individual consciousnesses leave our bodies, and will we all just exist again as light, information, and thoughts in the 6th dimension, mind, or collective consciousness of the macrocosmic being that we are living in? Will a new dream begin? Or will the light, consciousness, and information being received by the heart of the macrocosmic being that we are living inside of eventually cause it to melt its own suppressed emotion, release its cold cells, and kill the mind, crown, or "corona" virus that has invaded the heart? Will a dream be revealed?
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That is all "I" have for now.
Peace.
Saturday, August 15, 2020
Friday, June 26, 2020
6/26/20
It is Friday, June 26, 2020, at 10:38 pm. I am sitting on my balcony listening to music, listening to fireworks, and listening to everything else that is going on.
As for my health... my body remains strong, my mind remains at ease, and I remain dis-ease free.
I am good.
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That's all I have for now.
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Peace.
-kyle
As for my health... my body remains strong, my mind remains at ease, and I remain dis-ease free.
I am good.
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That's all I have for now.
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Peace.
-kyle
Friday, March 20, 2020
3/20/20
It is Friday, March 20, 2020, at 6:04 pm. I just woke up from a nap. Earlier I cut Koi and Quron's hair, chilled with Ziyn, and took a long walk.
As of right now, pretty much the entire world is at a standstill. Most people in most countries are under some sort of mandatory stay at home quarantine. Every non-essential business is closed. The school year for all students at all levels is over. Every sporting season, concert, and entertainment event has been cancelled. No prom, no NCAA Tournament, no nothing. All casinos are closed. All liquor stores are closed. All restaurants are closed. As of right now, we are living in an unprecedented time in human history.
The reason for these drastic actions being taken is due to the spread of a disease being called Coronavirus, or Covid-19.
As of right now, I am just calmly watching everything unfold. I really do know how to heal people of all diseases. I really know that there is really only one disease, which is the dis-ease of the emotions. Different combinations of emotions that are at a level of dis-ease result in different names for different diseases. Heart disease, cancer, coronavirus, ebola, swine flu, and every other disease is the same thing; a different combination of emotions that are at a level of dis-ease.
Understanding that water holds emotion, humans hold water and emotion, the chakra system in the body, and how water and emotion are filtered through the mind and the body really does give me the ability to help others heal their disease. I serendipitously figured this out during my cancer experience. How I healed from terminal cancer is how everyone can heal from all diseases. I now can intentionally help all other people heal all diseases.
Even though there is a lot of panic in the world, I still have hope. I still believe that one day the world is going to heal. I still believe that one day the world is going to let me use what I have learned to help others. Until then, I am just going to remain calm, prepared, and patient.
It is now 7:21 pm. The sun has gone down, but it is still warm outside. I think I am going to go for a walk. I will check back in soon. Peace.
-Kyle ❤️
Thursday, January 2, 2020
1/2/20
Today is Thursday, January 2, 2020... at 2:03 pm. I just finished cutting my son's hair. Last night the Los Angeles Lakers beat the Phoenix Suns 117-107. This morning I had another really good workout at the gym. I am still in really good shape. Everything and everyone around me is good. I am looking forward to many good things this new year. The future is going to be bright. Today is bright too. That is all I have for now. I will check back in soon. Peace.
-Kyle
-Kyle
Monday, November 25, 2019
Monday, November 18, 2019
11/18/19
It is Monday, November 18, 2019, at 1:30pm. My son and I are watching Canton Charge highlights on YouTube. Last night the Los Angeles Lakers beat the Atlanta Hawks 122-101.
I just left the gym. I ran on the treadmill, lifted weights, and played three games of competitive one on one basketball with my very fit friend. I won the first two games. I let him win the third.
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I am still being intentionally ignored for living through, figuring out, and publishing the cure to cancer. Sometimes I don't know how to feel about that. Sometimes the intentional malice and ignorance of people who I once thought wanted to help myself and others hurts me. Sometimes knowing that people know what I know, know that it will help others, but won't stand up with me and won't speak up with me, hurts me too.
I know that there is nothing to worry about. I know that the world is eventually going to change. I know that more people are eventually going to stand up with me and speak up with me. I know that everything is eventually going to be ok for everyone. I know it. At this point I just need to remain patient, and keep sharing what I know.
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It is now Monday, November 18, 2019, at 4:03pm. My son just left. He makes me happy. I am about to go for a walk. I have come a long way since the first post of this blog. I will check back in soon.
Peace
-Kyle
I just left the gym. I ran on the treadmill, lifted weights, and played three games of competitive one on one basketball with my very fit friend. I won the first two games. I let him win the third.
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I am still being intentionally ignored for living through, figuring out, and publishing the cure to cancer. Sometimes I don't know how to feel about that. Sometimes the intentional malice and ignorance of people who I once thought wanted to help myself and others hurts me. Sometimes knowing that people know what I know, know that it will help others, but won't stand up with me and won't speak up with me, hurts me too.
I know that there is nothing to worry about. I know that the world is eventually going to change. I know that more people are eventually going to stand up with me and speak up with me. I know that everything is eventually going to be ok for everyone. I know it. At this point I just need to remain patient, and keep sharing what I know.
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It is now Monday, November 18, 2019, at 4:03pm. My son just left. He makes me happy. I am about to go for a walk. I have come a long way since the first post of this blog. I will check back in soon.
Peace
-Kyle
Wednesday, October 16, 2019
It is Wednesday, October 16, 2019, at 11:27 pm. My son is having a baby in a few months. Basketball season is almost here. My birthday is coming up soon. I have a lot to look forward to.
Below is Chapter 7 of the upcoming audiobook that I co-authored entitled... "HIStory: The Life and Times of Bernie Durant." In this chapter, Mr. Durant explains in detail how he as a Quality Control Engineer working at Western Electric in the early 1960's overcame many trials and tribulations to become the first African American home owner in the history of the city of Allentown, PA. Mr. Durant was my friend, my mentor, and almost like my father. We were just about finished writing his autobiography before he passed away in 2014. Rather than me completing just his physical book, having an audiobook and hearing him tell his story seemed appropriate in this new digital age.
Full audiobook coming soon.
Enjoy 🖤
Chapter 7: House
Below is Chapter 7 of the upcoming audiobook that I co-authored entitled... "HIStory: The Life and Times of Bernie Durant." In this chapter, Mr. Durant explains in detail how he as a Quality Control Engineer working at Western Electric in the early 1960's overcame many trials and tribulations to become the first African American home owner in the history of the city of Allentown, PA. Mr. Durant was my friend, my mentor, and almost like my father. We were just about finished writing his autobiography before he passed away in 2014. Rather than me completing just his physical book, having an audiobook and hearing him tell his story seemed appropriate in this new digital age.
Full audiobook coming soon.
Enjoy 🖤
Chapter 7: House
Thursday, October 3, 2019
It is Thursday, October 3rd, 2019.
Let me repeat that.
It is Thursday, October 3rd, 2019.
We are less than three months away from the year 2020.
That is actually kind of scary.
On May 31, 2018, I published the book "The DEATH OF a CANCER patient."
That book is the cure to all cancer.
That is actually kind of scary.
That was seventeen months ago.
To myself, there was never an issue of if the book was going to age well. Once I finished the book, I knew what I had. I knew that my book really was the cure to cancer. Once I realized that the book could literally be read and applied backwards to other people without me having to do anything but change certain sequences of the wording, I really knew what I had. That is what "the death of a cancer patient ii" is. When I finished writing part ii, I really knew that I had the cure to cancer.
My issue was always going to be acceptance. Generations of propaganda stigmatized marijuana. I knew that after figuring out the cure to all cancer included the once looked down upon but newly legal medical marijuana, getting people to accept that truth was going to be the real issue. For many years, the cure to all cancer sounded like something that was impossible. Convincing people that I figured out the impossible... in what would seem like an impossible way... seemed really impossible.
Seventeen months after publishing The DEATH OF a CANCER patient, the world is changing. The world is becoming more accepting of plants being medicine. It is slowly becoming very normal.
The world is also getting smarter. People are becoming more demanding. People are tired of giving to a system without receiving equal value. People are tired of paying for things that are more than they are worth. People are tired of being paid less than what they are worth.
People want the cure to cancer. People have invested enough of their hard earned money in an attempt to find a cure. People deserve a cure. As impossible as it once sounded, my books are the cure. I can no longer be afraid to say it. This blog chronicled my cancer journey since day 1. My books had to be the cure, and they really are.
Again, it is Thursday, October 3rd, 2019.
Again, that is actually kind of scary.
I have no idea what it going to happen next. My entire infrastructure is set up. My blog is thorough, my books are complete, and my body and mind are as healthy as can be. My books are in the hands of very well respected doctors, psychologists, and businesses around the world. Someone very important and very influential is eventually going to validate me, and the cure to cancer is eventually going to be accepted. My only question is when, and how. Will I get a phone call in 5 minutes that will change my life? Will I verbally explain the cure to cancer in front of doctors, psychologists, businesses, a really big crowd, cancer patients, and the media?
I am not sure what is going to happen. All I know that is something is going to eventually happen. I understand that all I have to do at this point is stay patient, poised, and purposeful.
It is now Thursday, October 3, 2019, at 10:47am. I am sitting in the lounge of a hostel in downtown New Orleans. They play really soulful music here for 24 hours. I am eating a ham, egg, and cheese 'crousandwich that I made from the open breakfast bar. I am drinking an orange juice and a coffee. My roommates are really nice. The room is really clean. I am about to go to a thrift shop down the street, get a smoothie, and go for a casual stroll in a quiet neighborhood. I am going to read my poetry at an open mic night tonight. Maybe my phone will finally ring, the phone call or email I have been waiting for will happen, and my life will finally change. Maybe it won't. All I know is that whatever happens next, I will be fully prepared for it.
Peace.
kyle j. kostic
Let me repeat that.
It is Thursday, October 3rd, 2019.
We are less than three months away from the year 2020.
That is actually kind of scary.
On May 31, 2018, I published the book "The DEATH OF a CANCER patient."
That book is the cure to all cancer.
That is actually kind of scary.
That was seventeen months ago.
To myself, there was never an issue of if the book was going to age well. Once I finished the book, I knew what I had. I knew that my book really was the cure to cancer. Once I realized that the book could literally be read and applied backwards to other people without me having to do anything but change certain sequences of the wording, I really knew what I had. That is what "the death of a cancer patient ii" is. When I finished writing part ii, I really knew that I had the cure to cancer.
My issue was always going to be acceptance. Generations of propaganda stigmatized marijuana. I knew that after figuring out the cure to all cancer included the once looked down upon but newly legal medical marijuana, getting people to accept that truth was going to be the real issue. For many years, the cure to all cancer sounded like something that was impossible. Convincing people that I figured out the impossible... in what would seem like an impossible way... seemed really impossible.
Seventeen months after publishing The DEATH OF a CANCER patient, the world is changing. The world is becoming more accepting of plants being medicine. It is slowly becoming very normal.
The world is also getting smarter. People are becoming more demanding. People are tired of giving to a system without receiving equal value. People are tired of paying for things that are more than they are worth. People are tired of being paid less than what they are worth.
People want the cure to cancer. People have invested enough of their hard earned money in an attempt to find a cure. People deserve a cure. As impossible as it once sounded, my books are the cure. I can no longer be afraid to say it. This blog chronicled my cancer journey since day 1. My books had to be the cure, and they really are.
Again, it is Thursday, October 3rd, 2019.
Again, that is actually kind of scary.
I have no idea what it going to happen next. My entire infrastructure is set up. My blog is thorough, my books are complete, and my body and mind are as healthy as can be. My books are in the hands of very well respected doctors, psychologists, and businesses around the world. Someone very important and very influential is eventually going to validate me, and the cure to cancer is eventually going to be accepted. My only question is when, and how. Will I get a phone call in 5 minutes that will change my life? Will I verbally explain the cure to cancer in front of doctors, psychologists, businesses, a really big crowd, cancer patients, and the media?
I am not sure what is going to happen. All I know that is something is going to eventually happen. I understand that all I have to do at this point is stay patient, poised, and purposeful.
It is now Thursday, October 3, 2019, at 10:47am. I am sitting in the lounge of a hostel in downtown New Orleans. They play really soulful music here for 24 hours. I am eating a ham, egg, and cheese 'crousandwich that I made from the open breakfast bar. I am drinking an orange juice and a coffee. My roommates are really nice. The room is really clean. I am about to go to a thrift shop down the street, get a smoothie, and go for a casual stroll in a quiet neighborhood. I am going to read my poetry at an open mic night tonight. Maybe my phone will finally ring, the phone call or email I have been waiting for will happen, and my life will finally change. Maybe it won't. All I know is that whatever happens next, I will be fully prepared for it.
Peace.
kyle j. kostic
Sunday, September 15, 2019
It is September 15 , 2019 at 3:57 pm. The Patriots are beating the Dolphins 37-0. I didn't even know it was football season , let alone week 2. I have been really focused on work.
I just got back from spending 10 days in Los Angeles. This trip gave me a breakthrough. The one I needed. I really needed to understand that nobody cares. Forget about me. Forget about you. Forget about cancer. People like you and me and with cancer that are reading this have places to sleep. Homeless people do not have places to sleep. I have social security, a gym membership, and my health. I have been homeless. While I am in Pennsylvania, I have a place to sleep. I am a California resident though , due to my medical needs. When I am in California, I am really homeless. I was really homeless for these last 10 days. I really slept outside of UCLA Health Center on Lincoln BLVD in Marina Del Rey. I really go to St Joseph's Homeless Center every day to get my mail. I really go to Bread and Roses to eat every day. I have checked in to those places over 300+ times in the last 3 years. I really walk until I get blisters on my feet. After I sit and pop the blisters, I get up and keep walking. I break my root chakra on purpose, and then let it heal. I walked an unthinkable amount of miles in the last 10 days. I needed to be around the worst of the worst, and away from people who need attention. While I was in LA, I intentionally went to the hood and sat in piss and garbage with Papi. Yes I am getting ignored for publishing 5 books, knowing the cure to cancer, blah blah blah... but this grown man is constantly being ignored for literally living in piss and garbage. Like, Mr. Hildago has a name, story, and a REAL need for attention. I don't really care about your Ferrari , your resume , what you are wearing, what you look like, or what you are financially worth. I am not giving it any of my attention. Mr. Hildago needs to be loved. He needs my attention. He and other homeless people need the attention of us all. Just by me giving him attention , he feels love. He doesn't even speak English , and I barely speak Spanish. He just sits and swats flies, and I just sit and smoke weed. My point is, my life is ok. Seeing how homeless people still live and remembering really being homeless for some time in LA gave me the breakthrough of perspective that I needed. I am no longer going to complain about not being heard about knowing the cure to cancer, even though cancer patients still need help. I am just going to continue living my life. The reception I received from drops and drips is making me smile right now like I haven't smiled in a while. People love the books. I have been writing for my entire life, and only have 5 books. I only release books that I feel are necessary. drops and drips are definitely necessary. This recent trip to LA solidified my position as an author. People really, really, really, love drops and drips. Then I pull the other 3 of my books out my bag, and things really get interesting. The staff at Bread and Roses are LMU graduate school volunteers, and they all feel sorry for me because they understand my conceptualization of the cure to cancer, see my books, see and hear me speak, understand systematic oppression, and understand that I am being ostracized by society because what I know shuts big pharma down. They are almost embarrassed to give me my food and pour my drink, because they know that I shouldn't be there. I have to be there though. I have to be an author that is seen being ignored by the system by young LMU students, social service workers, and people of society. When I went to get my EBT card, the service worker felt my pain. That was a down moment for me, even though I am better now. Being ignored for knowing the cure to cancer hurts. Having to get EBT, be homeless, and do all of this stuff is not fun. I am very tired. Even though I only got $14.00 of EBT a month, I was grateful for that. I used it all. With all of that being said, I am going to continue listening to what Jeremy tells me. Slow down. Keep living slow. I am going to do just that. I am going to keep things in perspective , and be grateful for my health. I am going to just hang out with my family for a while. I have done my due diligence as a cancer advocate. I am passed that. The people in power all know the cure. They are going to release it on their terms, if at all. The system will not be taken down alone by me. I am done with the fight. Maybe the LMU students and other people who have my work will be invigorated, inspired ,and energetic enough to continue that fight. My birthday is at the end of October. I have a grandchild on the way. My moms birthday is tomorrow. Shout out to my sister Devon, who's birthday is today. I am going to look forward to those things. And to all of those who are homeless, keep going. Eventually things are going to get better. More people who have an abundance of things are going to begin trading receiving for giving, vanity for truth , and money for value.
I don't care what time or date it is. I am going to get some food and spend time with my family. I love you. Peace.
-Kyle
I just got back from spending 10 days in Los Angeles. This trip gave me a breakthrough. The one I needed. I really needed to understand that nobody cares. Forget about me. Forget about you. Forget about cancer. People like you and me and with cancer that are reading this have places to sleep. Homeless people do not have places to sleep. I have social security, a gym membership, and my health. I have been homeless. While I am in Pennsylvania, I have a place to sleep. I am a California resident though , due to my medical needs. When I am in California, I am really homeless. I was really homeless for these last 10 days. I really slept outside of UCLA Health Center on Lincoln BLVD in Marina Del Rey. I really go to St Joseph's Homeless Center every day to get my mail. I really go to Bread and Roses to eat every day. I have checked in to those places over 300+ times in the last 3 years. I really walk until I get blisters on my feet. After I sit and pop the blisters, I get up and keep walking. I break my root chakra on purpose, and then let it heal. I walked an unthinkable amount of miles in the last 10 days. I needed to be around the worst of the worst, and away from people who need attention. While I was in LA, I intentionally went to the hood and sat in piss and garbage with Papi. Yes I am getting ignored for publishing 5 books, knowing the cure to cancer, blah blah blah... but this grown man is constantly being ignored for literally living in piss and garbage. Like, Mr. Hildago has a name, story, and a REAL need for attention. I don't really care about your Ferrari , your resume , what you are wearing, what you look like, or what you are financially worth. I am not giving it any of my attention. Mr. Hildago needs to be loved. He needs my attention. He and other homeless people need the attention of us all. Just by me giving him attention , he feels love. He doesn't even speak English , and I barely speak Spanish. He just sits and swats flies, and I just sit and smoke weed. My point is, my life is ok. Seeing how homeless people still live and remembering really being homeless for some time in LA gave me the breakthrough of perspective that I needed. I am no longer going to complain about not being heard about knowing the cure to cancer, even though cancer patients still need help. I am just going to continue living my life. The reception I received from drops and drips is making me smile right now like I haven't smiled in a while. People love the books. I have been writing for my entire life, and only have 5 books. I only release books that I feel are necessary. drops and drips are definitely necessary. This recent trip to LA solidified my position as an author. People really, really, really, love drops and drips. Then I pull the other 3 of my books out my bag, and things really get interesting. The staff at Bread and Roses are LMU graduate school volunteers, and they all feel sorry for me because they understand my conceptualization of the cure to cancer, see my books, see and hear me speak, understand systematic oppression, and understand that I am being ostracized by society because what I know shuts big pharma down. They are almost embarrassed to give me my food and pour my drink, because they know that I shouldn't be there. I have to be there though. I have to be an author that is seen being ignored by the system by young LMU students, social service workers, and people of society. When I went to get my EBT card, the service worker felt my pain. That was a down moment for me, even though I am better now. Being ignored for knowing the cure to cancer hurts. Having to get EBT, be homeless, and do all of this stuff is not fun. I am very tired. Even though I only got $14.00 of EBT a month, I was grateful for that. I used it all. With all of that being said, I am going to continue listening to what Jeremy tells me. Slow down. Keep living slow. I am going to do just that. I am going to keep things in perspective , and be grateful for my health. I am going to just hang out with my family for a while. I have done my due diligence as a cancer advocate. I am passed that. The people in power all know the cure. They are going to release it on their terms, if at all. The system will not be taken down alone by me. I am done with the fight. Maybe the LMU students and other people who have my work will be invigorated, inspired ,and energetic enough to continue that fight. My birthday is at the end of October. I have a grandchild on the way. My moms birthday is tomorrow. Shout out to my sister Devon, who's birthday is today. I am going to look forward to those things. And to all of those who are homeless, keep going. Eventually things are going to get better. More people who have an abundance of things are going to begin trading receiving for giving, vanity for truth , and money for value.
I don't care what time or date it is. I am going to get some food and spend time with my family. I love you. Peace.
-Kyle
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