Thursday, January 19, 2023

1/19/23


Question:

Your cancer wasn’t terminal then after all?? Sheesh

Answer:

My cancer would have been terminal... if my patterns in life were terminal.

Changing my thought patterns... changed the results of my actions... and in turn changed the results of my body.

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The first thing I did was kill my ego.

E + GO = Energy to Go

Instead of directing my energy to going to appeasing myself in a destructive way... while simultaneously being destructive to the world in a negative way... I redirected all of my energy to positively appeasing myself... without negatively effecting others... or the world... in a negative way.

Prior to cancer... my self love was selfish.

After cancer... my self love became aligned with the self love of everyone.

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The next thing I did was break down the stagnant emotion inside of me.

Emotion = Energy in Motion

Instead of directing my energy to constantly eating and digesting bad food that my body could not cumulatively digest over a lifetime... I terminated that pattern... and changed my diet... to food that helped me break down, digest, and release stagnant emotion inside of me... that was ultimately my cancer... and that was ultimately literally holding me down. Continuously keeping my food... and the Energy in Motion... or emotion... inside of me fluid... keeps my body fluid... and not stagnant. Instead of being a cancer... and dying because of what emotion was inside of me.... I became a can-sir... because of what emotion is now out of me... and what emotions... or foods... continuously flow through me.

Thursday, December 1, 2022

12/1/22




It is December 1, 2022, at 9:34 am CST. It is 49 degrees, misty, and cloudy... here in the country...or canyon... in literally the most western part of San Antonio, TX. The chores are finished. This morning I have already given myself a shape up... and shaved. I got my hair cut about a month ago. Maybe I will tell the story about that another time. I am currently drinking some Cafe Caribe coffee, listening to rap music, and sitting on the couch with our four dogs. Our 4th puppy... Lucille Louise Kostic... aka "Mamas"... is now a new member of the family. She is a pit-bull boxer mix... just like Bagel. She looks like the female version of Bagel. Eventually I will write the full story on how she came into my life... and into our home.  I will also eventually have pictures of her. I currently do not have a cell phone. The story on that is... not having a cell phone... has actually accidentally improved the health of my hips, legs, and overall root chakra. So when I broke my old one... I never got a new one. Due to the weather being what it is... we have not gone on our morning walk. That is alright. We are all in very good shape, and the air is very fresh in the house.

We inside. 

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Last night the New Jersey Nets beat the Washington Wizards 113-107. While I have ultimately cancelled the NBA... I check in on Kyrie from time to time. While I have for now mentally cancelled Kyrie... my heart wants to make sure he remains physically healthy... so my mind can eventually accept him again... once he eventually uses his heart... to get his mind right... by cancelling the New Jersey Nets... and the ultimately the entire NBA. 

Last night he had 27 points, 5 assists, and 1 rebound. 

Cool.

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Even though I do not have a cell phone... I do have a computer. 
Recently... every time I log on to the computer... I hear the word cancelled. 

Cool.

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In my life... due to my esoteric life experiences... I have been forced to cancel... a lot of things. 

When I was a kid... I once put a butter knife into a toaster. 
After getting shocked... I cancelled that behavior. 

When I was a young man... I used to steal bicycles. 
After eventually feeling bad for doing bad... I cancelled that behavior.

When I was an adult... I used to eat meat. 
After learning that what I was doing was ultimately bad... and not good... I cancelled that behavior. 

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When it comes to the word cancel... we are ultimately stopping... doing something that we once thought was good... that we now know is bad. 

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I once thought it was a good idea to stick a butter knife into a toaster. 
I once thought it was a good idea to steal bicycles. 
I once thought it was a good idea to eat meat. 

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In my life... due to my esoteric life experiences... I have been forced to understand behavior. 
In my life... due to my esoteric life experiences... I have realized that there are only really 6 types of people.

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There are people that open their hearts... to use their minds... to unconsciously... do good. 

There are people that open their hearts... to use their minds... to unconsciously... do bad.

Those people are all unconscious

Those people can do both good and bad.

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There are people that have closed their hearts... and only use their minds... to consciously... do bad

There are people that have closed their hearts... and only use their minds... to consciously... tell other people... to open their hearts... to use their minds... to unconsciously... do bad... that seems like good. 

Those people are all subconscious.

Those people are examples... of how our minds... and the minds of others... can influence our hearts... to do something bad... that our hearts and minds... knows is bad. 

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There are people that have opened their hearts... to use their minds... to consciously... do good. 

There are people that have opened their hearts... to use their minds... to consciously... do bad.

Those people are all conscious.

Those people can do both good and bad. 

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The longer we live as people.... and the more esoteric experiences we have... we all can go from unconscious, subconscious, to conscious.

When we are unconscious... we ultimately know if our actions are good... after we feel the result of our action. 
When we are subconscious... we ultimately do not know if our actions are good... because we have not yet felt the result of our behavior. 
When we are conscious... we ultimately know what the feeling of the result of our behaviors will be... before we act. 

When I was a child... I ultimately figured out that the idea of sticking a butter knife into a toaster was bad... after feeling the result of my action. 
When I became a man... I ultimately figured out that the idea of stealing a bicycle as a young man was bad... after eventually understanding the result of my action. 
When I became an adult... I ultimately figured out that the eating meat will eventually make me sick... after understanding my feelings and the results of my past actions. 

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As we all grow... we all learn. 

We all then cancel behaviors that do not work... and change. 

If we do not cancel behaviors that we know do not work and do not change... we kill ourselves.

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I have personally cancelled Kyrie Irving... because he is consciously doing something with his mind... that his heart... ultimately knows is bad.

Playing basketball is good. 
Being an an NBA employee seemed good... but after having the esoteric experience... Kyrie Irving now knows that the absolute value of that experience... is bad. 
After using his heart to initially stand up for himself... he eventually closed his heart... and used his mind... to continue to play NBA basketball...which we now know... due to knowing the absolute value of his treatment and his past esoteric experiences...  is bad.

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Is all rap music bad?  
No.
Is the rap music industry bad... due to it being controlled by conscious bad people... who pay good hearted unconscious people... to rap about things that seem good... but are ultimately bad? 
Yes.

Is all education bad? 
No. 
Is the education system bad... due to it being controlled by conscious bad people... who teach good hearted unconscious people... facts that seem true... but are ultimately false? 
Yes.

Is all food bad? 
No.
Is the food industry bad... due to it being controlled by conscious bad people... who pay good hearted unconscious people... to accept some food that seems good... but is ultimately bad? 
Yes.

Is all currency bad? 
No.
Is the standard monetary system in this country bad... due to it being controlled by conscious bad people... who pay good hearted unconscious people... to make having money... make the system... look fair? 
Yes. 

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The number one killer of people is heart dis-ease. 

People die of heart disease... because they overuse use their hearts... continuously trying to convince their minds... to continue do what their heart knows is bad. 

Going forward... if we want to live... we are going to have to learn... through our esoteric experiences... and the esoteric experiences of others... that we all have to live from the heart. 

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I have learned that in life... that we are all given grace. 
If we unknowingly do bad during grace periods, we are all given chances to learn. 

I have also learned that in life... we are all given mercy. 
If we knowingly do bad while being given mercy, we are STILL given chances to change. 

I have ultimately learned that in life... that if people do not change after being given continuous opportunities for grace and mercy... god will ultimately take your body. 

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While the number one killer of people is heart dis-ease... the number one feeling for a person while alive... is the stimulation of the heart. 

In the future... less people will die of heart dis-ease... because they will not overuse their hearts... to continuously try to convince their minds... to continue to do what their hearts... knows is bad. 

Going forward... we will know... because of the esoteric experiences of others... that living from the heart... will actually give us more life. 

Everlasting life?

Y... not?
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It is now 12:24 pm CST and 51 degrees... here is San Antonio, TX. Since I have cancelled a lot... because I had the heart... to use my mind... to stop doing lots things that seemed good... that were ultimately bad... I have earned myself... lots of free time. I can now do lots of things that are really, really, good for my heart... the heart of others... and the Earth... or heart... of this thing... we are all living on top of. 

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TTYL. Peace.

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kyle <3












Thursday, August 11, 2022

8/11/22


It is Thursday, August 11, 2022... at 4:46 pm. Today the Houston Astros beat the Texas Rangers 7-3. I am sitting at the kitchen table... listening to the album Thank Me Later... by the artist Drake. My 3 puppies Bagel, Roni, and Cheese are asleep on the couch... still resting after their workouts this morning. It is 257 degrees outside here in San Antonio, TX. I just took a shot of Jim Beam Kentucky Straight Bourbon. I am sipping on a water. I exercised this morning, the chores are complete, and I am still full from the big lunch that I ate this afternoon. Life is Good. 

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Tatiana is doing really good. She is currently in LA. She went from being a student, to performer, to teacher... at the Debbie Allen Dance Academy... one of the most prestigious dance schools in the world. 

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It is really Thursday, August 11, 2022. We are really in the dog days of summer. 

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The summer fun pictures on social media are slowing down. 

The memes are getting repetitive. 

The alerts, scrolls, and likes have become underwhelming. 

People are getting bored. 

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I haven't really "written" on this blog in a while. While I have talked lightly about certain topics... I haven't really opened my heart... and fully expressed myself in this space in quite some time. 

I feel like right now is a good time.

I feel like right now it is needed. 

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It is really Thursday, August 11, 2022. 

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I feel like in 2022...

Teachers do not want to go back to work... to teach kids what kids in 2022 do not need to learn. 

Students do not want to go back to school... to be taught what they do not need to be taught in 2022.

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As of today... President Joe Biden has had coronavirus twice. 

As of today... Health is still an elective in most schools. 

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Was Michael Jordan as healthy as he could have been... if he went bald in his 20's?

Should a 10 year old ever need glasses? 

What would make a once dark beard... turn gray? 

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As a child growing up... even though I was gifted... I did not like school. Intuitively... I felt like I did not need to learn what I was being taught. The only reason I went to school was because I had to go to school in order to play sports. I learned enough about gambling by the age of 12 to know how to earn and flip money while playing games and making calculated risks while in the streets. When I got older, I always knew that eventually I would be able to use those skills inside of casinos. The only reason I went to school was to attempt to eventually make money by playing sports. 

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As an adult... I have learned a lot about health. 

As an adult... I am still trying to figure out why I had to learn so much about health... as an adult. 

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In the year 2022... children who know about chakras... know that Michael Jordan began to suppress crown chakra emotions in his 20's... causing him to go bald.

In the year 2022... children who know about chakras... know that 10-year old children should never need glasses... because they should still be developing their intuition, imagination, wisdom... and Third Eye Chakras. 

In the year 2022... children who know about chakras... know that men who have gray beards... have hair growing through leaking glue from old dental procedures... due to old throat chakra suppressions. 

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I feel like in the future...

Teachers will not want to go to work... to be told by kids... what they as teachers... need to know. 

Students will want to go to school... to tell teachers... what they as teachers... need to know. 

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I feel like eventually... Joe Biden is eventually going to need to really focus on his own health. 

I feel like eventually... Health will not be an elective in any schools. 

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It is really Thursday, August 11, 2022. 

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The puppies are now awake. It is now 6:58 pm. It felt good writing on my blog today. I feel like what I wrote is enough for now. The puppies just finished going to the bathroom and eating their snack. They usually go for their second walk of the day around this time... but right now it is raining outside. Maybe I will have them do yoga inside tonight. Maybe later we will watch Scooby-Doo. Maybe later we will listen to music and dance. We have options. We have time. We will see. 

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Tomorrow is really going to be Friday, August 12, 2022. 

I am excited for tomorrow morning. 

I am exciting for the sunrise.  

I live in southwest San Antonio... on top of a canyon in the country... one exit away from a no name town. 

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The peace is never boring.

The fresh air, sounds of nature, and beautiful views... are never underwhelming. 

The feeling of peace never gets repetitive. 

I am glad that I slowed down. 

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Talk to you soon. 

Peace.

-kyle