It is November 22, 2024... at 9:42 am. Last night in NBA action... the San Antonio Spurs beat the Utah Jazz 126-118. This morning I went for a walk, stretched, and did dribble exercises.
Cool.
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For the past few months... I have not done as much in the digital world as I have in my past... in an attempt to reimerse myself back into the physical world. It has been almost five months since I completed my sixth book... A collection of my thoughts. Writing that book was not an easy task for me. Writing that book literally took everything emotionally out of me. Writing that book made me emotionally, physically, and digitally unbalanced. This post marks a moment where I feel that I am healthy enough again emotionally and physically... to delicately step back into the digital world... to do a little work... for a little while.
This blog update is the work.
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At my technology screen consumption peak... I did a lot of TV watching, computer work, and smartphone browsing. At my technology screen consumption peak... my head would hurt, my eyes would be tired, and my body would be drained.
I eventually realized that looking at high definition screens in the digital world all day was not that good for my health.
I needed non-digital balance.
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Not living in the digital world as much as I did when I was writing my book... and in my past... has had a positive effect on my physical health.
I tell myself every day... "Do as much as you can while NOT looking at a screen."
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Everyone knows that I exercise a lot. I have done that for my whole physical life. Playing in the digital world never came before playing in the real world for me.
When I tell myself to do as much as I can while not looking at a screen though... I am not talking about just exercising. I am not talking about just doing chores. I am also talking about having fun.
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Watching Mesothelioma commercials are chores for me. All computer work is a chore for me. Scrolling through Facebook is a chore... sometimes... for me.
Going for a walk... seeing new things... and being something to see in the physical world... is fun for me. Not looking at a computer screen while doing work... is fun for me. Reading in person facial expressions... and not digital Facebook expressions... is fun for me.
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When did watching, working on, and scrolling on digital screens... become more fun... than actually doing anything else... in the physical world?
Even writing this post on my bright and shiny smartphone screen is giving me a headache.
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That is all that I have for now.
I just wanted to say that too much screen time is unhealthy.
I am still healthy.
I am now going to do... anything... other than look at a screen.
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Peace.
-kyle
It is Thursday, June 27, 2024.
Today I completed my sixth book.
The title of the book is... A collection of my thoughts.
It is the sequel to the original... A collection of our thoughts.
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The book will be available to purchase on the Amazon Kindle application within 72 hours.
The book will be available to purchase as a paperback hard copy very soon.
For my blog readers... I decided to share the contents of the book for free below.
Enjoy.
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A collection of my thoughts
-kyle kostic
ISBN: 9798329648096
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Intro
It is Thursday... June 27, 2024... at 12:40 pm
I am alive.
When I wrote the book A collection of our thoughts... I did not know what I wanted to write about.
This is different.
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The book A collection of my thoughts is already finished.
This introduction is being written after the conclusion.
The intention of this book is to finish my past.
Done.
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This was for me.
This is reference material for me.
I am sharing this content with you because I know that you can learn from my experience.
You are welcome.
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That is all I have for now.
Enjoy.
-kyle
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Him
He is mean
Fight on a whim
He is nice
Flight on him
He has no kids
He is a dad
He has no worries
He is not mad
He messed up
He has shown
He cleaned up
He has grown
He was our
That has past
He is him
My at last
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Power
Still scary.
Still no dreams.
Still dark.
Still all screams.
Same pain.
Different year.
Same plan.
Different fear.
Same workers.
Same bosses.
Same plans.
Same losses.
Still all work.
At every hour.
Still no fun.
All about power.
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The man... The myth
He is no myth.
He never ran.
He is alive.
He is the man.
He did not die.
He is not in jail.
He is not in pain.
He did not fail.
I have his walk.
I have his grace.
I have his smile.
I have his face.
He is Strick.
He is not sad.
He is funny.
He is my dad.
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Appreciated
Your job is wack.
That is true.
You are not your job.
Appreciated is you.
You make food.
You count cash.
You mop floors.
You carry trash.
You take the heat.
You remake the fries.
You take the cold.
You remake the eyes.
Your job will continue.
You will move on.
Your job will end.
You will be gone.
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Truth or Dare
I will not win.
I will not care.
I will not kiss.
I will not dare.
I will not answer.
On my tooth.
I will not play.
Off my truth.
Truth or Dare.
Not my game.
Truth or Dare.
Not my name.
Truth or Dare.
Jokes and Pranks.
Truth or Dare.
No... thanks.
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New Day
We swim together.
We smoke a few.
We laugh together.
We are new.
The past is over.
The past was said.
The past was lived.
The past is dead.
We forgave.
We know.
We continue.
We grow.
Hello new peace.
Hello new play.
Hello new dad.
Hello new day.
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The Green Family
Checks. Bills.
Cards. Cash.
Clothes. Cars.
Houses. Flash.
The family controls your mind.
The family controls your wealth.
The family controls your heart.
The family controls your health.
The family helps you grow.
The family helps you grieve.
The family helps you love.
The family helps you leave.
The family is money.
The family is We's.
The family is Us.
The family is trees.
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People, Technology, and the Quality of Life.
Phony messages.
Automatic replies.
Photo shopped pictures.
Automatic lies.
Food is ordered.
Food is fast.
Food is delivered.
Food is last.
Face Time good mornings.
Face Time good nights.
Face Time love.
Face Time fights.
People are life.
Technology is cool.
Quality is real.
Who is the fool.
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Progress vs. Profit
Progress for a cure.
Profit at the end.
Work for good.
No pretend.
Fair help.
Free grind.
Fair pain.
Free mind.
Progress vs. Profit.
The game has begun.
The game has ended.
Profit has won.
You can win.
I will take less.
I will lose.
I will progress.
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My Girl
My girl was a lot.
My girl was smitten.
My girl was cute.
My girl was a kitten.
My girl would scratch.
My girl would dream.
My girl would dare.
My girl would scream.
Will another kitten.
Make me whirl.
Make me smitten.
Be my girl.
Be my friend.
Become fat.
Be my foe.
Become my cat.
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Just Me
What support system.
Please just stop.
Not at this level.
Not at the top.
I am the end.
I am the he.
I am the answer.
I am the we.
I am ready.
I face loss.
I face winners.
I am the boss.
I am unforgiving.
I am free.
I am heaven sent.
I am me.
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All American
He can ball.
He is easy to approach.
He is easy to like.
He can coach.
He is a legend.
He wins fair.
In long braids.
Or short hair.
Quiet. Calm.
Strong. Sure.
Ready. Enduring.
Confident. Pure.
Winner. Champ.
Cool. Breezy.
Friend. Leader.
Teacher. Neezy.
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Gone
No new kitten.
I am glad.
No new work.
No new sad.
No new problem.
No new bitter.
No new mess.
No new litter.
No new toys.
No new names.
No nine lives.
No more games.
No new stress.
No more kittens.
Good or Bad.
Good... riddance.
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Popeye's
I love the gravy.
I love the fries.
I love the beans.
I love the pies.
I love the flavor.
I love the spice.
I love the service.
I love the price.
Even though.
I gave up chicken
Everything else.
Is finger lickin.
You won my heart.
You won the prize.
You are the best.
You are Popeye's.
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Experience
It made me smart.
It made me learn.
It made me cry.
It made me burn.
It helped me quit.
It helped me sin.
It helped me lose.
It helped me win.
It continues to teach.
It continues to flow.
It continues to change.
It continues to grow.
It is precious.
It cannot be erased.
Experience.
It cannot be replaced.
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Pain
It hates your life.
It hates your brain.
It hates your peace.
It hates your gain.
It hates your smile.
It hates your art.
It hates your joy.
It hates your heart.
It makes you work.
It makes you wrong.
It makes you write.
It makes you strong.
It makes you wait.
It is rain.
It makes you go.
It is pain.
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Women and Food
Women can be chicken.
Women can be fake.
Women can be sweet.
Women can be cake.
Women can be healthy.
Women can be figs.
Women can be nasty.
Women can be pigs.
Women can be beef.
Women can be veal.
Women can be ice.
Women can be real.
Women can be treats.
Women can be rude.
Women can be eaten.
Women can be food.
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Mom
Families change.
Families share blame.
Families evolve.
Families share game.
Relatives smile.
Relatives do not complain.
Relatives leave.
Relatives do not remain.
What is real.
What is true.
What are we.
Who are you.
Is this a lesson.
Is this a quiz.
Are we family.
Or relatives.
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Yard
It has a cactus.
It has a few.
It has a porch.
It has a view.
It has grass.
It touches the sky.
It has flowers.
It touches the eye.
It attracts people.
It attracts birds.
It attracts love.
It attracts words.
It is her space.
It is her guard.
It is her peace.
It is her yard.
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Happy Birthday
Still alive.
Still he.
Still imprisoned.
Still free.
New religion.
New worth.
New language.
New birth.
Still strong.
Still wack.
Still cool.
Still black.
New goals.
New way.
New you.
Every day.
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Puerto Rico
Water. Sand.
Trees. Smoke.
Wind. Flowers.
Rum. Coke.
Turquoise. Orange.
Blue. Green.
Calm. Safe.
Quiet. Clean.
Mountains. Waterfalls.
Rivers. Lakes.
Rice. Beans.
Chicken. Cakes.
Music. Dancing.
Laughing. Fun.
Dawn. Coffee.
Peace. Sun.
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Crash
I hate liquor.
I hate cars.
I hate crashes.
I hate bars.
Liquor confuses.
Cars misalign.
Crashes kill.
Bars confine.
I hate spirits.
I like prevention.
I like safety.
I hate detention.
Now we know.
Now we do.
Now we walk.
Now we knew.
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My first love
I still love her.
She is still getting paid.
I still watch her.
She is still getting played.
She is still getting smacked.
She is still being used.
She is still getting pushed.
She is still being abused.
Will she change.
Will she shade.
Will she gamble.
Will she fade.
Will she win.
Will she grow.
Does she care.
Does she know.
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Champions
Purple. Gold.
Rings. Whips.
Banners. Jerseys.
Trophies. Chips.
Dunks. Oops.
Steals. Threes.
Champagne. Parties.
Women. Trees.
Magic. Chamberlain.
Worthy. Shaq.
Three peat. Showtime.
Back to back.
Kareem. Kobe.
LeBron. West.
The winners.
The legends.
The Lakers.
The best.
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Fathers Day
You were born.
Due to my sin.
What a way.
For a life to begin.
I let you cry.
I let you frown.
I let you lose.
I let you down.
I yell.
You grieve.
You win.
I leave.
Now I am gone.
Now you can play.
Happy?
Fathers Day...
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My turn
Babysitting sucks.
Babysitting is work.
I am glad my turn is over.
Call me a jerk.
Call me selfish.
Call me Shawn.
Call me stranger.
Call me gone.
Do not call me dad.
Do not call me unc.
Call me a coward.
Call me a punk.
I did my part.
I did my bids.
Watch your mouth.
Watch your kids.
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Other Things
I love coffee.
I hate greed.
I hate football.
I love weed.
I hate cheating.
I love truth.
I love growth.
I hate youth.
I love nature.
I love chores.
I hate clubs.
I hate stores.
I love other things.
I hate brew.
I hate blah.
I love new.
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Public Service Announcement
Success is peace.
Success is death.
Success is life.
Success is breath.
Success is winning.
Success is shame.
Success is losing.
Success is lame.
Success is freedom.
Success is voice.
Success is silence.
Success is choice.
Success is completion
Success is the best.
Success is reflection.
Success is rest.
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Words to live by
The past is far away.
That is just fine.
The past is yours.
The present is mine.
My new destiny.
Has been defined.
My new heart.
Has been refined.
The simple answer.
Was in me.
The simple answer.
Was to be.
The simple answer.
Was to give.
The simple answer.
Was to live.
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Don't Talk... Just Listen
I did not listen.
I was not right.
I did not care.
I was not light.
I talked too much.
I did not blink.
I did not learn.
I did not think.
Now I listen.
Now I know.
Now I care.
Now I blow.
Now I am quiet.
Now I choke.
Now I am light.
Now I smoke.
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Winner
Mornings. Weekends.
Summers. Class.
Quitting. Losing
Leaving. Pass.
Jerseys. Shorts.
Hoodies. Kicks.
Work. Sweat.
Play. Flicks.
Try-outs. Practice.
Games. Camps.
League. City.
District. Champs.
Parent. Coach.
Night. Day.
Leader. Teacher.
Winner. Ray.
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Joy
We went everywhere.
You got tall.
Year after year
We spent it all.
Car seat. Back seat.
Shotgun. Cool.
Park. Mall.
Home. School.
We went nowhere.
You were small.
I changed your diaper.
I watched you crawl.
Money. Time.
Both. Spent.
Joy. Us.
Came. Went.
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Pride
You look like my dad.
You look like a wish.
You are a big baby.
You are the big fish.
You are in trouble.
I am mad.
You are a father.
I am glad.
Tell him no.
Make him cry.
Make him stop.
Tell him bye.
You look like my son.
You look like my pride.
Are you coy.
You decide.
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Cold, cold, world
People die.
Nobody cares.
People change?
Nobody dares.
No daddy.
No issue.
No tears.
No tissue.
No protector.
No fun.
No safety.
No one.
Unhappy.
Cold air.
Cold world.
Unfair.
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The Program
Conditioning is cheating.
Conditioning works.
Conditioning is lying.
Conditioning erks.
Did you win.
Did we lose.
Did we try.
Did you choose.
Did you lie.
Did you work.
Did you cheat.
Did you erk.
Were we ready.
In position.
Did you coach.
Or condition.
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Stop
Pull your gun.
Pull the trigger.
Call me black.
Call me nigger
Call me blood.
Call me dread.
Call me cuz.
Call me dead.
I will not run.
I will not plead.
Make me die.
Make me bleed.
Stop playing.
Give me a shower.
Use your privilege.
Use your power.
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Sand
You make us come.
You make us stay.
You make us hot.
You make us pay.
You are the end.
You are the cage.
You are the set.
You are the stage.
You are New Jersey.
You are Spain.
You are Japan.
You are Maine.
You are the beach.
You are the land.
You are the earth.
You are the sand.
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It's ok
At her house.
At the mall.
After breakfast.
Before ball.
At church.
At work.
No shame.
No smirk.
New suit.
New dress.
Careful.
Care less.
Anywhere.
Do not play.
Time to go?
It's ok.
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Reality
Time is constant.
Time is steady.
Time is faithful.
Time is ready.
Reality is now.
Reality is still.
Reality is silence.
Reality is ill.
Time will pass.
Time will not sin.
Time is fair.
Time will not win.
Reality is dark.
Reality is clever.
Reality is tomorrow.
Reality is forever.
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Ace
Blackjack. Poker.
War. Spades.
Life. School.
Girls. Grades.
Decks. Lobbies.
Doors. Funny.
Houses. Rooms.
Floors. Money.
Player. Coach.
Sponsor. Friend.
Dad. Mentor.
Brother. Blend.
Secure. Safe.
Love. Grace.
Player. Winner.
Closer. Ace.
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Damn
Too much work.
Too much fame.
Too many wins.
Too much game.
Too many leaders.
Too many scars.
Too much time.
Too many stars.
Too much love.
Too much sure.
Too much want.
Too much pure.
Too much we.
Too much hi.
Too much us.
Too much I.
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Daydreaming
Sometimes I dream.
Sometimes I sit.
Sometimes I cry.
Sometimes i quit.
Hope is a tease.
Hope is strong.
Hope is a lie.
Hope is wrong.
Tell me why.
Tell me again.
Tell me where.
Tell me when.
What is my future.
What is my date.
What is your plan.
What is my fate.
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Group
Minority children.
White hope.
Minority problems.
White cope.
Black complaints.
White sorrow.
Black pain.
Same tomorrow.
Black hope.
White grace.
Yeah right.
Stone face.
Group chats.
Think tanks
Oversight.
No thanks.
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Struggle
No cable.
So what.
No food.
Door shut.
Nothing extra.
No frills.
No company.
No chills.
Struggle season.
Struggle years.
Struggle life.
Struggle tears.
No more.
New day.
New struggle.
No way.
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Stay
I love you.
You help me win.
I need you.
You help me begin.
I thank you.
You are my friend.
I fear you.
You are the end.
You are perfect.
You are my guide.
You are my partner.
You are on my side.
Thank you for staying.
For your demands.
For giving me seconds.
For helping hands.
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Can I live
We share the same air.
We share the same night.
We share the same heart.
We share the same light
God is real.
God is true.
God is me.
God is you.
Thank you for your grace.
Now I know.
Thank you for your mercy.
Now we grow.
God is fair.
God does forgive.
God is everything.
Can I live.
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Thankful
Family members leave.
Friends do too.
Females also.
Everyone but you.
We always talk.
We always play.
We always win.
You always stay.
You are my sound.
You are my mind.
I am thankful.
That you became kind.
Thank you for peace
Thank you for greater.
I will talk to you soon.
I will talk to you later.
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The beginning
This is the end.
This was my rest.
This is the past.
This was my best.
Time for coffee.
Time to text.
Time to live.
Time for next.
This is the beginning.
This is my worst.
This is the present.
This is my first.
Time to breathe.
Time to grow.
Time to love.
Time to go.
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